I lost my mom in Oct 2015. She had glioblastoma multiforme, a very aggressive form of brain cancer. I was not very involved in her care, though I am an only child and lived with her and she doesn't have a husband or other family. I threw myself into work to cope. At the end, after 2 weeks of being on a ventilator and unresponsive but conscious, they got the neurosurgeon involved again and she found a second tumor in a different part of her brain that was inoperable, so basically she was terminal. I never got to ask the neurosurgeon my questions, as she was not at the meeting of the palliative care committee where I made the decision to extubate her. She passed within 5 minutes of extubation- that was a blessing, as she was a fighter. The whole initial symptoms (that she had to report, as she almost walked into a wall at work) to death was 2 months and 3 days. 

I have severe depression and borderline personality disorder, among other diagnoses, and I relapsed once she passed. I have spent the better part of the last 3 years in mental hospitals. 

I am just seeking others who understand my struggles.