i felt that way when i miscarried my son at 13 weeks.... i just wanted to feel him kick and hear his heart beat again and its been 5 months and i still long for it... i have a teddy the hospital gave me and it does help... it drys my tears listens to me when no one else wont and gives me comfort on knowing he was there... plus the babys due date is coming up and thats going to be hard on me... he was my first pregnancy and would have been my first son.. but im a mommy to an angel baby and when people ask if i have kids... i tell them hes no longer with us and leave it at that.... im so sorry for your loss hun.... im here if you ever need to talk rant or rave about anything... our babies are watching over us and playing in the clouds

I completely understand, a first pregnancy should never ever be a heart breaking experience, its so cruel. I think the bear ideas are only good for you to have something to cuddle and cry that is also almost more like something for them as it is a child toy.

Do you think the drawings upset you more as they gave her a face? I'm really sorry if they did and im so sorry your first pregnancy loss was tragedy, but it really has not been that long, you are allowed to grieve, I've made some things for a friend who lost her first recently we are going to do a "funeral/goodbye" for hers to see if that helps her at all, it doesnt mean it will but she wants to be able to say good bye even if she keeps collecting tributes. I made her a doll to the measurements her child was when lost and che cut off some of her and the fathers hair to put in it, so its more symbollic then anything.

But my point is everyone tries different ways to cope, you do whatever it is for you to cope ok hun, it really wasnt that long ago, and i am sorry once again if the drawings hurt you more

i understand how u feel. My first pregnancy ended in a MC. i was almost 11wks. MY first child should of just turned 7 last month. after losing my baby i believe it was a lil girl, i felt empty as well. and i was only 17 when this happened to me. my hubby who at that time was my bf had bought me a big stuffed animal a couple months b4 i lost the baby and it was always on my bed well after i lost the baby i cuddled up with that animal every night and every time i felt depressed and it did help in way. my 2nd and 3rd pregnancy thank you god i had healthy baby girls who are now 4 and 16 months. Sadly to say my 4th pregnancy god took another one of my sweet babies. i felt so horrible asked how could he take 2 of my babies away and i felt so empty. i felt like i needed my stuffed animal to cuddle with again and i do still have it. but this time i cuddled with my 2 girls.
i am so sorry for ur loss hun and hang in there. all of us are always here to talk....hugz to u sweetie...

I don't think it was the drawings. I love them more than anything. I needed that for it to feel more real for me and to show others that she existed, if only for a short time. I was having a hard night. I was sad and I really just wanted to talk to Greg, but he was asleep all evening/night. I felt lonely and REALLY wanted to just hold her. But I adore those drawings. I have them all printed out. She's gorgeous. :)

It's hard for me mostly because I live with family, my aunt and uncle. My aunt is pregnant again and no one in my family knows about Kayden accept my cousin, Brandon. I wish I could share it with them but I'm not ready yet. I'd love to try with my bf but that would be selfish, as we aren't in the best place for that right now. But it would be nice. Thanks for the replies, you all are a big help!

I adore the drawing of her that LAhitchens did, its so sweet and beautiful she is a fantastic artist.

It is even harder when the only person in the world you can talk to about this pain is asleep or worse awake and not wanting to hear about it. thank god you have Lauren so close and that the two of you are genuinely good friends outside of this pain.

I hope a good nice sleep helped rest your emotions for a bit and you feel a bit better soon.