Miscarriage Support Group

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today is a horrible day

lina2008
lina2008
Its been two weeks since I lost my baby.... I thought I would ry and get away if for oly a little while from the pain by going to the gym and distracting my self for a while... I whent really early so I wouldn't have to see the mums with their babies, but guess what... yep there it was, right in front of me a pregnant woman, probably about 4 or five moths... I almost broke down right there and then... I wanted to run, but I made my self stay and do my work out. it took me about 30 minutes to get some semblance of self control....

then I came over to my mum's... I thought maube a cup of tea with her would be nice after the morning I had... but my 4 yearl old nephew was over and one of the first things he asked me was.. what happened to your baby??? I was floored... I told him that the baby was now in heaven and he said, but why? why is the baby whith god? why wont the baby come back to you?.... I just walked out of the room bawling my eyes out...

and now I feel completly heart broken, I can hardly concentrate.... I want to die... I want to die so I can be with my baby....
deleted_user
deleted_user
It's been 2 weeks for me also.. I am so sorry for what you had to go through today. That was my day yesterday. Some days are harder than the rest. I try to distract myself also.. It helps for awhile but something like that happens and your right back to wantng to curl into a ball and die. It seems to me pregnant women and children are everywhere...it hurts so much. Thinking that should be me.. Insead were just a shadow if what we used to be...
We will get through this... Slowly, but we will. Take care. Lots of hugs.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Two weeks was when I hit rock bottom. I am getting better and it will get better for you too. Your nephew is right and I ask the same questions over and over. I won't have any answers and won't understand until I am in heave with God. ANd I really hope that by then it won't matter anymore.

I am so sorry - hugs and love to you.

I, too, wanted to die and now I don't. Because at this point I feel I can share my journey with one mom and Rebekah Grace's short life will have been for something really good. I found I neede to give myself time to cry and scream and just be. Too many distractions and I couldn't really grieve. Once I gave myself permission to be sad and cry and be angry and be hurt and all those things, I started to have better days. It will be 9 weeks tomorrow.

I am so sorry. Praying for you ...
CassieGinny
CassieGinny
I'm so sorry that you're going through this and that you had to deal with all of that today. I can totally relate to everything that you are going through. I can't escape the pregnancy/baby reminders either. Everywhere I go everyone seems to be pregnant, if I watch tv or listen to the radio there are constant commercials, news stories, references to it. I am hoping for a time when it gets easier to deal with all that. I want to be able to appreciate the happiness of others I just can't get there yet.
I have all of those same questions as your nephew about my baby and all of our babies. I wish that I could answer them. I would cry too in the same situation.
Thinking of you and hoping that you have a better day tomorrow