Today was an interesting day. First of all, I found out from my husband whom is a Funeral Director at a local Funeral Home that our sweet little Angel Angela Christine whom had been at the Funeral Home since this past Tuesday had finally been cremated. A big part of me had expected to feel some sort of relief and/or closure; however I found myself feeling more saddened and confused than anything. Then, to make matters worse; while trying to reach out to my mother for support, I was told in so many words that I've done enough grieving and to get over it. Needless to say I was speechless. All I could say was, "Mom, this isn't going to go away". The loss that my husband, daughter and myself experienced and the experience itself have left me without the ability to argue, defend myself or fight.
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