I'm so sorry for your loss. I think, even if we've moved on after the loss of our baby it all comes back around the time of our due date. I'm about 7 weeks away from what should have been mine, and I've been thinking alot about that baby.
As far as the feeling that your running out of time I can sympathise. I'm only 26, but My mother died at 27 years old from a very severe strand of breast cancer. All my life I've felt that I wouldn't have as much time as other people. I rushed though high school, being the only 16 year old in my class to Graduate and the only 16 year old in my college classes. I enlisted in the navy at 17 got married at 18. I always planned on two children, but I have had miscarriage after miscarriage. I have so many health problems, that I'm worried that anytime I'm going to get the same diganosis as my mom and it will be too late. Well, take care and wish you louck and lots of baby dust.

Your story sounds similar to mine in many ways. My husband and I really enjoyed traveling and decided not to rush into having children. When I did find I was pg at 35, I was estastic. Unforunately, miscarried at 20 weeks. Now I understand what I was missing and how truly special it is to be a mom ! My dr also deemed me of advance maternal age but know I have a few more years. It's a tough place to be with the clock ticking but hope we both have our dreams fullfilled! Hugs.

I've just turned 36 and after 3 miscarriages and no children I understand how you must feel. Don't give up you have support here.

I understand the "older" mom thing and I am so sorry for your loss. These past few weeks must have been very draining for you. I hope you have a strong support network and you are relying on them, even if they don'tunderstand completely. I agree that no one else understands this pain. I think that because there was nothing tangible to hold or coo at people feel the loss is less real and that it should be dealt with privately and swiftly. I know in my case that certainly is not the reality. I am 37 years old and became pregnant through my first IVF treatment this past May. After the retrieval, my dr. kept referring to my older less energetic eggs, he was stunned when I the tests actually proved I was pregnant. Then, when we found out the baby had stopped developing a couple of weeks ago he again attributed her passing to my advanced maternal age resulting in a chromosonal disorder or mitochondria that did not have enough energy to full continued development (because they were old).
Just a few hours ago I had a breakdown after a conversation with my husband because I feel that clock ticking. I want to try another round of IVF using our own eggs, use donor eggs, sign up for internation adoption, domestic adoption, find a donor embryo, essentially anything that will make us parents and all it once! While he shares the grief, I got the distinct impression he thinks I am "insane" for thinking about all of these things when the baby hasn't even passed yet (yet another thing that is causing constant stress and pressure). I will never ever replace her. She will always be loved and missed and I feel guilty for wanting to "go on with it" so quickly. But time is of the essence and if I ever want to be a mother, I really need to get moving.
I hope you are feeling stronger in time and remember to savor every moment, because we never know what the next one will bring. Hold your partner close and when you search for answers to the decisions looming ahead, remember the joy of being a mother and don't let age or anything else stop you if that is your dream!