A few weeks ago I lost my baby at 10 weeks. It was exactly one year after my first miscarriage. I'm so completely crushed. When I lost my baby last year I thought I'd die from the heartbreak, but some how I found strength to move on. However, this time I'm in such a dark place. I'm not even sure how to get out of bed somedays. The other day I was in the shower sobbing for over an hour. There is this aching emptiness inside and I'm not sure how to heal. Sometimes I think this loss was the worlds way of telling me I'm not meant to be a mother. This hurts so bad and I'm losing it. This all just seems so meaningless.
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