Hi all! On September 20th I went in to have my first ultrasound. I was 10 weeks and 4 days and super excited to see our baby! The ultrasound tech was super quiet during our appointment and didn’t show us the screen. I knew something was wrong but had to wait until Monday (10/2) to have it confirmed. The ultrasound showed that the embryo was only measuring 8 weeks 2 days and there wasn’t a heartbeat. I then had another ultrasound the next day to confirm I had a missed miscarriage. I scheduled a D&C for the next day. It will be one week tomorrow since the D&C procedure and I find myself getting more and more depressed each day. I want so bad to be pregnant and start a family. This is killing me knowing that I would have been 12 weeks today. There is also a part of me that blames myself. When I first found out I was pregnant I wasn’t super excited, I was scared and didn’t feel that I was ready. Though my husband and I planned on getting pregnant I expected it to take a lot longer than it did. As the weeks went on I was warming up to the idea and was looking forward to being a mom by the time we realized we had lost the baby. I worry that I caused the miscarriage. I ran a 5k around 8 weeks and part of me can’t help but wonder if that’s what caused it. I’m just struggling dealing with the overall heartbreak that comes with a miscarriage and the guilt that this could be my fault. I’m trying to stay positive and to distract myself but every night I end up crying myself to sleep and can feel myself pushing my husband away. Any insight, stories, experiences would be appreciated.
Hello everyone! I’m 47, married, no kids. My DH and I have been TTC for 9 years already. I’ve got pregnant in 2012, but there was problem with my kidneys and doctors had to terminate pregnancy. There is a very high risk for me to get pregnant again. We decided to use services of surrogate mother. Surrogacy is forbidden by law in our country and we are looking for options abroad. Which...
Today I got the results of my beta test and it was negative. Yes, I cried even though I’m at work. Feeling ok.Processed my emotions last night and by morning before test there was an inexplicable feeling of peace with no matter what the outcome would bring today. We have a follow visit next week to discuss our options for next cycle. Not throwing in the towel just yet. Hope.