Miscarriage Support Group

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I want to crawl in a hole.

Elliepp
Elliepp
So I work as a benefits coordinator/employee Relations rep. I handle everything medical. I just had to have an employee meeting. It starts off with this is confidential..my response yes of course. within 5 minutes I had to put a smile on my face, give advice and hold back tears. Here is a woman who has gotten pregnant with her boyfriend. She says completely unexpected. Baby is due in July when mine was and I had to listen to her say how she is a nervous Mom to be and had her first prenatal visit this am...she was so excited to hear the heart beat. Murphy's law...well guess what Murphy...you suck! So not fair and so want to cry.

I had to put her mind at ease, comfort her as she was getting freaked out and then have her say thank you, you made me feel so much better. I want to feel better and I am feeling very selfish right now.

Needed to vent. Thanks.
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it's hard to comfort someone who is excited about the things you wanted to be excited and nervous about.
That is so good of you to of been there for her though to talk to.

Women really don't appreciate the depth of miscarriage until they endure it for themselves.

*huge hugs* you are not alone
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You are stronger than I am! Today was supposed to be my 6 week ultrasound at 11:30 so instead I made my hair appointment for 11:45 thinking it will take my mind off of it...well guess what?!? My effing stylist is PREGNANT! I started to bawl, I tried to explain to her what was up but she seemed freaked out. Her big a$$ belly kept rubbing up against me as she cut my hair. What cruelty!!! So, I guess what I'm saying is that although our situations were a little different I know exactly what you feel.
Elliepp
Elliepp
That just blows. I would have started crying too. Thanks for your support. Its as if there are babies everywhere. I never noticed it before and I just wanted to scream when that employee came in. How did your hair turn out?
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Hi Elliepp.

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I, too, was to have a baby in July. I just found out my BHC levels dropped today which indicates I'm miscarrying. I am with you on wanting to crawl into a hole and wanting to vent at the same time. Take the time to feel selfish!! I am... but remember to lean on the people who love and care about you. I am and it's helping. It's not taking away the pain of a loss that we were not in control of, but it's helping.

I, too, am working while going through this. Putting a smile on your face when all you want to do is cry is tough. Sometimes venting is the only positive way to get things off your chest. Stay strong and remember there are lots of people to talk to.

Cher
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Sigh. I know how you feel. Yesterday, I was helping a customer at work who had brought in her newborn little girl. All she wanted to talk about was her baby and I was trying so hard to keep it together and then she said "Aren't you so jealous? Don't you wish you had a little baby to cuddle?" and I completely lost it. I had to excuse myself and run to the bathroom before I cried all over her. Praying for us both.
Elliepp
Elliepp
Thanks friends. Unfortunately my job requires me to help people who are pregnant etc. I had another father to be call me yesterday for help. Have to be happy for all the people who don't have to deal with a miscarriage. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger right? Hope everyone is having a good day and chermaster I am sorry your levels have dropped. Keep us posted and we are all her for you. Lahitchins I am sorry you ahd to go through that. Sometimes people forget that other people may have had a different experience. If someone asked me if I was jealous...I probably would have lost it. Stay strong
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It is soo hard to see and be around other pregnant women knowing that should be you!!!! I just lost my baby about 3 weeks ago. I was 21 weeks pregnant and went into pre-term labor for reasons unknown....I had a boy and he was not able to survive. I just went back to work yesterday (I work retail) and its so hard being around customers that are pregnant or have newborns. It makes me extremely sad :( You are NOT alone....if you EVER need someone, I'm here. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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I just found out monday that the baby i am carrying had passed away last friday. I am out of work for 2 weeks, due to having to have surgery on monday, the 12th, because me body isn't recognizing that the baby has died. I was due in July also. I work with a friend that is due in February so i know when I go back to work it is gonna be torture having to work side by side with someone that is pregnant...i am also friends with her on facebook and when i see her posting "problems" with her pregnancy, not real problems just normal pregnancy symtoms, i want to respond with be happy that you are having them, i would give anything to feel pregnant and not to be going through this...
Elliepp
Elliepp
Faygeo I am so sorry for whats happening to you. I instantly stopped feeling pregnat as if it never happened. I can't even imagine what you are feeling. I am sending positive vibes your way and thinking of you.
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understandbale how you feel. i lost my baby in November 2010 from jan- threw first of feb i find out that 6 people i know was pregnant. i always said congratulation with a smile on my face but deep in side i was dieing to cry. so dont feel selfish you did nothign wrong.
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i would not be able to do that. you are such a strong woman!!
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My best friend is pregnant with her 1st and I am so happy for her but at the same time Its hard to not feel jealous.
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I understand this...after I lost my baby two co-workers got pregnant pretty close together. Both where a bit young like early twenties and not married and it was not planned. Both where freaking out and one even was upset she couldn't drink at her 21st bday party. I wanted to scream and shake them that they should be grateful. What do you do? It took all my energy to not call them ungrateful. They didn't know I lost a baby and it wasn't fair for me to be angry at them. I just was.
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I had to have a d&c and when I went to schedule a follow-up appointment, they scheduled me on the same day and time I would have had my first "official" prenatal appointment. That in itself was enough to make me cry. I dread sitting in an office surrounded by pregnant women.
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I am sorry that you are going through this. Sadly, I totally understand. Every time I see someone post their sonogram pic to facebook or make an announcement that they are pregnant, or see someone with a newborn baby it brings back my heartbreak as well. You are far from alone, and my heart and thoughts are going out to you.