Miscarriage Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have experienced the traumatizing event of a miscarriage or a stillbirth. Miscarriage remains one of the most common complication of pregnancy, but that doesn't make it easy to deal with. Join the group and find support in the company of others who know what you're going through.
Hello everybody in the miscarriage support group,
I'm 15 weeks pregnant and my baby will stay inside me till Monday morning at 7 am (Irish time)
Yesterday I went to the hospital and they couldn't see my baby heart's beating. Emily (I don't know if was a girl or a boy) had a lump on her head, she wasn't well, she was ill and she dead, it's a genetic malformation. I feel terrible, empty, especially because she's still inside me and I must take tablets Saturday and Sunday and Monday come back to the hospital so I will say good bye to my little Emily.
Well, for sure I'm positive because she wasn't feel good so it's better now, it was her destiny and I'm happy for that, I'll go to light a candle in the curch and thanks God to make her feel better now. I couldn't think if it would happened at the 6th or 8th month of pregnancy.
The doctors want I have a miscarriage and I don't want, Emily still my baby but I will pass through the labour with all the pain, painreliefs, etc etc and for me it doesn't have any meaning because she will born 9 cm long and dead, and my brain will still working. They don't want I sleep while it happens and it makes me crazy. For sure I want they visit her to check what happened so she will help Michael and I for our next baby. My Emily will have a brother or a sister soon. I can't explain how I feel and I'm so scared for Monday, really scared. The doctor said it happened, Emily wasn't good and I didn't do anything wrong, it's not my fault...I know that but I know also she's still inside me, I can't wait till Monday to have my baby dead inside me. She is my baby, my angel, but it make me feel her tombstone. This feeling is silly, stupid, I know.
Will I be able to go out, to see pregnant women, baby sleeping at the supermarket? I can't, I want just to sleep without dreams.
My boyfriend is wonderful, he is with me all the time but I want to cry cry cry. She had already a lot of clothes, blue pink white, she had already a name without know if the baby is girl or boy. Her future brother or sister will wear them but I feel so usefull now, so scared, so sad, everything all together!
Sorry, I wrote too much I know but I needed to explain it to people who are passing through this strange and bad period.
Thank you very much
Marta
I'm 15 weeks pregnant and my baby will stay inside me till Monday morning at 7 am (Irish time)
Yesterday I went to the hospital and they couldn't see my baby heart's beating. Emily (I don't know if was a girl or a boy) had a lump on her head, she wasn't well, she was ill and she dead, it's a genetic malformation. I feel terrible, empty, especially because she's still inside me and I must take tablets Saturday and Sunday and Monday come back to the hospital so I will say good bye to my little Emily.
Well, for sure I'm positive because she wasn't feel good so it's better now, it was her destiny and I'm happy for that, I'll go to light a candle in the curch and thanks God to make her feel better now. I couldn't think if it would happened at the 6th or 8th month of pregnancy.
The doctors want I have a miscarriage and I don't want, Emily still my baby but I will pass through the labour with all the pain, painreliefs, etc etc and for me it doesn't have any meaning because she will born 9 cm long and dead, and my brain will still working. They don't want I sleep while it happens and it makes me crazy. For sure I want they visit her to check what happened so she will help Michael and I for our next baby. My Emily will have a brother or a sister soon. I can't explain how I feel and I'm so scared for Monday, really scared. The doctor said it happened, Emily wasn't good and I didn't do anything wrong, it's not my fault...I know that but I know also she's still inside me, I can't wait till Monday to have my baby dead inside me. She is my baby, my angel, but it make me feel her tombstone. This feeling is silly, stupid, I know.
Will I be able to go out, to see pregnant women, baby sleeping at the supermarket? I can't, I want just to sleep without dreams.
My boyfriend is wonderful, he is with me all the time but I want to cry cry cry. She had already a lot of clothes, blue pink white, she had already a name without know if the baby is girl or boy. Her future brother or sister will wear them but I feel so usefull now, so scared, so sad, everything all together!
Sorry, I wrote too much I know but I needed to explain it to people who are passing through this strange and bad period.
Thank you very much
Marta
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I am so sorry for your loss. I recently miscarried my first pregnancy and it was devastating! You go thru so many feelings and emotions at one time and it is hard to think clearly at times. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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I too had to carry my baby for a week before the doctors were completely sure something was wrong, so I can relate to how you are feeling. I knew in my heart things weren't right. It was/is a devastating feeling. I am still going through a huge range of emotions from guilt to anger. Just remember that God has a plan for you and your Emily. I know that He has a plan for my baby as well, it doesn't make the pain in my heart any less, but it does give me peace. I know how it feels to not want to do anything but cry. Everyone handles a miscarriage differently so the only advice I can give you is to follow your heart and grieve how ever you fell you need. I am sorry you are having to go thru this and hope you know others can relate and are here for you. God Bless you and your Emily.
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