Hi everyone, I'm new to this support group but for the last couple weeks I've been reading everyone's posts. Thank you! They've gotten me through a lot. I had my miscarriage at 12 weeks on May 21st. The same afternoon I had a d&C. I was considered high risk because of past blood clots and had already had 2 ultrasounds so I have pictures of my angel which almost makes it harder. Anyway, my follow-up appointment was this past Tuesday, June 10th. It was TERRIBLE! I knew I'd probably come across other pregnant woman, but I never thought it would have bothered me as much as it did. When I walked in my dr.'s office, the whole waiting room was almost completely full. As I sat down I noticed every woman was visibly pregnant. At that moment, I felt a rush of heat come over me and my stomach was in knots. Then I was holding back tears. I didn't want to break down in front of all those people. I felt like I had walked into a bad nightmare. I just remembered being them, sitting there all excited and waiting for my ultrasound. I should be happy for them, but instead I was completely jealous. And also, the reminder that I'm not pregnant was very overwhelming. I had no idea that appointment would have been so emotional for me. When I finally got into the back room waiting for my doctor, I broke down and just sobbed. Even after my appointment, I cried all the way home and the rest of the evening I was so depressed. I know it's normal but will these roller coaster emotions ever subside? Has this happened to anyone? I thought I was doing pretty good handling my emotions by talking with my family and friends and even they have commented on how well they thought I was doing. I didn't expect this.
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