Miscarriage Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have experienced the traumatizing event of a miscarriage or a stillbirth. Miscarriage remains one of the most common complication of pregnancy, but that doesn't make it easy to deal with. Join the group and find support in the company of others who know what you're going through.
I have read that some women can develop PTSD from miscarriage. And the more I read about it, the more I'm starting to think I'm in that category. After going through 2 mc's in 6 months and a surgery in between, it has been 6 weeks since my last mc and I am still very much in grief over it. The days have seemed to get a little easier overall, but I still feel as though I live in this perpetual state of anxiety. Seeing a very pregnant woman or a woman with a young baby (like a few months old) - I can feel the panic setting in and the anxiety welling up inside of me. I usually have to turn away. When my un-married, barely 21 year old nephew's girlfriend gave birth last weekend to their baby girl (exactly what our hearts have ached for), I had a complete breakdown. Hysterical. Angry. Hating my life. I can't even bring myself to know anything about this baby, see pictures or anything. i can't even talk to my sister without feeling a rush of anxiety over it. I just feel like the anxiety is everywhere. I have trouble going to sleep sometimes - I either have flashbacks of the days of my miscarriage or I see the face of a newborn baby girl or both. I have to drug myself with Benedryl to sleep and even then, I have to be so totally exhausted I can't keep my eyes open anymore. Even typing this I can feel the anxiety. I see a counselor every other week (that's all I can afford with all of my medical bills with pregnancy and tests, etc.). I am already on Zoloft. But I still feel this way. Anyone else gone through this?
http://m.helpguide.org/articles/ptsd-trauma/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd
my heart truly goes out to you and i wish so much that you werent- that none of us were- going through this. i do think that the fact that you have identified some of your struggles as being related to PTSD bodes well for your recovery, because you know what to read up on and get support for, and if you choose to go to counseling you can pick a provider who specializes in not just grief but PTSD as well. oh i wish i could write more but this is making my head worse so i will go for now. my thoughts are with you, and please let me know if there is anything i can do.
I went to a healing Mass at church tonight and prayed for God to heal whatever is broken in my body to cause me to keep losing babies.
And also to heal me emotionally. I feel better already. I'm going to try and be positive....
Has your counselor given you any practical help on how to move through the anxiety attacks? I'm thinking breathing exercises and ways to calm yourself down to make things more manageable during an episode. Next appointment, if you haven't gone over that, ask.
I am going to bring this up to my counselor for sure. Things seem to be getting better, but of course I have yet to see a picture of my nephews newborn baby girl (who would have been 3 weeks after my first angel baby would have been born). I also haven't talked to my sister (nephew's mom) since before my last mc started, with the exception of some text messages. I guess those are my next items to deal with. I went to a healing Mass last night and I do feel a lot better....less anxiety and more calm. The most calm I've felt unmedicated since my last mc now 7 weeks ago. I like yoga for the relaxation and deep breathing but i can only get to 1 class a week. I need to get a DVD to do it at home...
I wish none of us ever had to go through this!!