its not wrong to feel ike this i feel like this all the time, its hard for me to see pregnant women or pass the baby ile in stores, but its not rong for you to be jealouse

Thanks dakataforever. Im happy to know im not alone. yeah all the pregant women I see Im just think "man yout so lucky and I bet you dont even know it." I feel a piece of me is gone but I know that I have to move forward some how some way. Thanks again.

You are not alone or wrong. Going through a miscarriage is the same as grieving the death of a loved one, it is grieving the death of a loved one, just a loved one you never met. Anyways, if you look up the grieving process, anger is a step in grieving. It's not only normal, it's documented. Jealousy is also normal. You can read through all the posts on this board and I'd bet money that 95% of them relate to jealousy and/or anger. Hopefully we get to a point where we can moderate/control those feelings, but they flair up.

Not that I'm a great one to consult on this. I have asked my two closest friends to not talk pregnancy and/or baby stuff with me till I'm in a better place. I can't handle it at all. I think one friendship will survive, the other won't. But I just can't take anymore, my heart needs time.

anytime lilduckie. i hope all is well for you in the future

Polydoly & dakota you ladies haave helped me lots. I will defenatly look up the greif cycle for miscarriages. I have lost so much in my life and gained good too. I need to try and work on my emotions. I have so many mixed feels and not sure what to do with them. the jealousy kills me the most because Im not a jealous person at all. Now having all these feelings of hurt, saddness and mixed. Thank you guys for your help. Sooo much. HUGs

on here your never alone. There's always somebody that you can count on to be here for you. Its defiantly hard to deal with the day to day struggles of loosing our babies.

It defiantly is. I just want the pain at times to go away. Make the memory go away. I remember when I told the guy that I was pregnant with his baby and I had miscarried he told me that he would be here for me if I ever needed him. My friend called him and yelled at him to come over and be with me. All we did was lay on the couch and he rubbed my tummy. He said we would have had a cute baby. I can still see the look in his face. It hurts. Not that I miss the guy but that shock of being pregnant and then losing the baby. Just mixed stuff. Can I get a new brain? smile. Thank you so much for support you guys.

There is a gal on the Infertility board who had a miscarriage around the same time I did. She has quoted in a few posts that she doesn't regret her miscarriage. I don't remember how she phrased it, but she is able to look back on the time she was preg with fond memories. I know she hurts too, but she seems to be much more healed than I am. There are days when I'm ok, but the last couple of days have been hard. I wish I could go back in time, never start trying to have a baby, never have been pregnant. I didn't like the month after month of trying and failing, but it's just so much harder now that I have tried, succeeded, lost and now trying again. There are some days I just can't see the beauty that she sees. I wish I could. But I know somewhere out there is another good day. I'll get back to it. Just hate the bad days in between.

I am so sorry what you have been through. I have experienced 2 missed miscarriages, and although they deeply hurt me emotional I have managed to slowly heal myself and am able to see the beauty in life. I smile and other days my I feel the sadness creeping up on me.

Don't ever feel bad for feeling Jealous it's normal. There is nothing wrong with wanting the same thing as another person. It's not that you want unhappiness for them, it's just that you're jealous that you're not experiencing this happiness yourself, and this is obviously causing you emotional pain and sadness.

When you do have a baby you will appreciate this so much. I know you shouldn't have to experience a miscarriage in order to feel this way, because am sure there are women out there who appreciate the blessing of a child.

Life can be really cruel and harsh sometimes and you wonder why has this happened to me. It's important not to focus on why, and just focus on accepting that this has happened to you and heal yourself. I would focus on keeping yourself as fit and healthy as possible and trying again in due course, once your ready.

I understand that you're very scared specially after having 2 in a row, and I do feel the same, as this happened to me last year. My 2nd miscarriage happened due to a chromosome error.

The baby had too many chromosome:69 in total, instead of the normal 46. This is why I lost the baby ay 9 weeks and 4 days. I also had to have 2 D&C Operations.

Focus on healing and maybe keep some distance from baby related topics and being around pregnant woman, this will be too raw for you now, but if u feel you can deal with it then that's fine. It's what you feel comfortable with.

I wish you every happiness and blessing. Please take care and once you're ready try again. Miscarriages are all too common, it doesn't make it any easier to deal with, but it's important not to give up. Sometimes you feel you want too in order to protect your heart from heartache, but by doing that we all could be preventing the birth of a beautiful baby in the future.

I am sorry that all us ladies are going through this and my heart goes out to you all. I know how painful this is. To experience 2 miscarriages have really broken my heart, but am focusing all my strength on healing myself and dreaming that one day I hold my baby in my arms.

This would be such a joy and true blessing and hope this dream does come true, but if not then I feel happiness that am a mum to 2 angels in heaven. They may not be with me on the physical plane, but they live in my heart.

I feel the same way one of my best friends got pregnant right after I list my baby and i thought how unfair that should have been me. I couldn't even look at another woman pregnant or with a child without becoming crazy jealous. I almost stopped talking to her because it was becoming to much for me to deal with. She understood what I was going through at least that is what she said but I am a firm believer that if you havent been through this you cant understand.

I hope everything becomes easier to deal with well wishes