I lost my baby several weeks ago and its still so hard for me to move forward. The worst part of all of this is that my boyfreind thinks I'm overeracting to the miscarriage. He keeps saying that it was natures way of letting us know we werent ready, and that I should be comforted by the fact that I can try again in a few years when we are better prepared. I cant seem to get him to understand that just because we werent planning to have a baby doesnt mean that I didnt have an instant connection and love for the baby the second I found out I was pregnant. I think what makes me most angry is the fact that while I'm crying and thinking about what stage of pregnancy I would be in if I hadnt lost the baby, he seems so relaxed so calm and even relieved at the fact that he doesnt have to be a father yet. I know he wasnt ready but I just didnt expect him to be effected so little by the loss of our child. I'm not sure what to do.
Posts You May Be Interested In
I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
I gave my 2 week notice last Friday 13th. Now to join you fine people in a life of leisure and nothing else to do but to look out for myself....is it just me or does that sound pretty boring? My goal was to live to retire and I guess having to take early retirement because of health reasons wasn't exactly the way I had planned things. I just can't stay in that building that is reeking mildew...