Here in the US we don't talk about acceptance very much. To my way of thinking acceptance is like resignation and that's for losers, right? I'm not calling you a loser, I'm just wondering what's the difference between acceptance, which is supposed to be good and resignation which is sad. I think that for people like you and me who have migraines the pain is what makes the difference. It's not possible to accept OR resign yourself to this level of pain. Add to that a dose of lack of understanding from family members and you would scream and rant like the classic "crazy person" from some very old black and white movie, but it would only make your headache worse. I know that's where I'm at sometimes. And I'm tired of being the pitiful victim. I want to take control and even wish I could kick tail sometimes. Instead of putting earplugs in my ears and then wrapping a pillow around my head I want to demand the noise to stop. Instead begging for a reduction in the noise around the house, which doesn't work anyhow, I want to scream "Shut the **** up!" or "Quit doing that!" But I'm not that kind of person. I'm tired of being a victim though. Even though people are not trying to hurt me, I feel like and sound like a victim when I walk around here with sad eyes.

My week hasn't been too bad. I've had to take rescue drugs almost every day, but this week they've worked for me. So that's incredible by itself.

I just spent an hour on the phone with someone who makes my problems look small. I could never have imagined the scenario my friend is going thru. At the end of her month she's losing her residence, her boyfriend and probably her pets. She has nowhere to go and no money to get there with. Why does that make me feel better and more in control?