I used meth for the past 3 or 4 years, never missed work, had almost no social relations, but everything was "ok", then I quited for three months, felt great, but this girl came back to my life, and started doing it again, only on weekends, I started missing work now, today will be my third night with no sleep and I work in 5 hrs, I started with mild mild alucinatons, paranoia, it's pretty obvious now to everybody that I use drugs, my life is breaking peace by peace, I'm afraid, feel so tired all the time, I don't know how long I can keep this, I won't use for the next few days and keep telling myself all the time to keep strong, don't do it again, but then I do it again, no hesitation, and the world turns up side down again for a couple of days, im desperate, why do I keep doing it, I feel better about myself after a few days clean, everything looks positive, bright, and boom I smoke again, please help me, or I'll lose everything, my kids know about it, and they're loosing hope in me, at work I'm not a good worker anymore, I feel so depressed, haven't eaten all day, didn't go to work today, again. What am I going to do
On November 6, I finally met my goal and made 1 year clean. This was the hardest and longest process I have ever went thru in my life but I am glad the hardest part is over but the battle is never over. Addiction sucks it really does but I can say it is a humbling eye opening experience. *pat on the back to me.
Hey everyone,I am new to this. I am a family member of several people who struggle with different addictions (meth, heroin, alcohol). Mostly cousins and my brother in law. I have been the support to my other family members. I am the one that everyone always comes to when they have questions or need resources or ideas for where to go when they need something. In regards, to my brother in law he...