Ive been married for 26 years. The first time I learned of his drug use we were in deep financial trouble that was 15 years ago we have worked so hard to rebuild our lives. Now I have learned hes been using again for at least a year. How could I have been so blind? I am so angry and hurt by his lies and deciet. He gets verbally abusive when I try to talk about what hes done to not just me but our family. He takes no respondsibility and denies theres a problem he even has said Im a bad wife for not supporting his drug use. I spend most of my time wondering if hes high if hes going to get high and where hes getting it from. Im sick of it Im sick of the fear and anger but I cant seem to stop caring. I have and still am contemplating divorce. I can not go down this dark road again I feel like Im drowning in sorrow. I almost wish he would cheat on me at least theres a person I can be angry at but its not another woman hes cheated with its crystal meth and I hate it more then anything on this planet. I need to regain myself and my own reality. But how when we are in this mist of such a destrutive substance
Hi my name is Nykki and I’m a recovering addict, my choices were cocaine and meth and I’m about 8 days away from being clean for 6 months now and i never felt better. Anything is better than that life
I have been on Hydrocodone for 9yrs. the last few uears I was taking 4 a day. I needed to get off of them. Couldnt stand being dependent on them. I decided to taper myself off. I did it in two weeks. Problem is I'm still going through strange withdraw symptom. Some days I;m fine other's it feels like I'm being electrocuted. Why? How lon g will this last. Whenever I think I'm clear more symptoms...