I am definatly new here. I have never admitted to anyone or even myself that I have a problem. I am addicted to meth. I will start from the beginning. I never did drugs growing up. It wasnt until I turned 40 and the BF i had then was into drugs, that i expieremented with drugs. I was influenced by my BF and did some stupid things. All within one years time i tried snorting perks, to smoking crack to shooting heroin, to smoking meth to smoking bath salts. It was crazy i never seemed to get addicted to any of this then and didnt care if it was around or not and just stop using whenever i wanted. I ended up losing everything ( my job, house, custody of my kids) by supporting my BF'S bad habit, so eager to keep him happy. We lived homeless in my vehicle for 1 month before getting a job then one day he deciced we were going to go to Flordia and start over, away from this mess. Well i was there 2 months and cirumstances brought me back home! i stayed clean got a good job and a home and custody back. He stayed in Flordia making a life for himself there. Moving forward I met my best friend at work and well meth was in the picture. I was only doing it occasionally then. Still went to work and didnt need it all the time. Nov 2015 is when i met my current husband.I stopped using completly then. We married May 2016--its an abusive marraige and so i have resorted back to meth occasionally to escape the abuse. But now its the worst its ever been. My husband is in jail for domestic violence and i find myself dong meth every day all day long. i am always wanting to have it--not like before where i didnt care if i did or not. I come home on my lunch break just to get high! my job does random drug testing and im afraid my name is going to be called soon--ill lose my job!! im in a custody "battle" right now and have court in Oct. if i dont stop this im going to lose everything again!!! IDK how to stop!! My family knows nothing the only person who knows anything is my best friend--who is an addict herself!!! Please HELP how do i stop this cycle???
On November 6, I finally met my goal and made 1 year clean. This was the hardest and longest process I have ever went thru in my life but I am glad the hardest part is over but the battle is never over. Addiction sucks it really does but I can say it is a humbling eye opening experience. *pat on the back to me.
Hey everyone,I am new to this. I am a family member of several people who struggle with different addictions (meth, heroin, alcohol). Mostly cousins and my brother in law. I have been the support to my other family members. I am the one that everyone always comes to when they have questions or need resources or ideas for where to go when they need something. In regards, to my brother in law he...