Hi Irene.
I'm new to group too.
I don't have much to offer as I'm just starting this journey too.
I'm upset about it but I had a hysto at age 28 with no kids.
I cry randomly but try not to in front of my family.
My new gyno my old one retired prescribed me VIvelle dot highest dose just this past Monday and is going to run many tests on my hormones. I've always been a strong person so this crying stuff really gets to me. Other severe symptoms have been the night sweat. I guess I felt really alone because I really needed my old GYNO dr but I couldn't reach out to her. One day at work I just felt like crying and I did. It wasn't pretty but I had my own office so I could compose myself quickly. My new GYNO told me not to cry because I started crying just trying to explain to her what I was going through.'

I also use Estrace cream on the outside of my vay jay jay per the new GYNO to help with the dryness.'
I'm not married but hope someday that I do get married and able to have someone support me and love me for myself. How about you Irene?

Hi Irene. This menopause really just sucks.

I found out that I'm in perimenopause. I also had my GP check my testerone which is also in the perimenopause range of .21. I'm so relieved that I was diagnosed. However, Vivelle Dot I believe is keeping me awake at night. Therefore, I think when I go to see the GYNO on 5/31, I'm going to speak with her about it to see if my dose can go down a bit. I don't think the lowest dose will help me at this point but maybe the next step down. The other thing is I had a Mammo last week and they've called me back for further tests. I had a breast reduction back in 2007 and haven't had a Mammo until last week. I hope it is nothing because if it is something then I might not be able to continue to use the Vivelle Dot estrogen.
If this is perimenopause, I'm not looking forward to menopause. I've been just trying to get my head around this change in my body. I struggle with it and trying to accept it but trying to manage it. I pray for strength to get through this as I've faced alot of struggles in my life but this seems so stressful for me.

I will support you since I am in the same boat. I am so miserable I would never kill myself but would not mind if someone did it for me. I have been to the gyno so much she hates me. I took anti-depressants for years with no relief going off them was complete hell and you will kill yourself that is how bad you feel. To me they are not worth that horrible crying and feelings of wanting to hurt myself. I have ADHD so I can't sit still but my brain races all day. I do exercise and I am leaner now then ever in my life. I have only missed 3 periods last year and I am 55 so they call me a late bloomer. WHY me? 5 sisters went through it at the correct time while I sit here suffering. I have had unltrasounds you name it I will try it but my insides are healthy so removing them is not an answer. My best advice is if you have a husband make him support you and understand what the hell you are going through or tell them to get out and come back when its all over if they are too weak to handle the better or for worse part. If you don't have a husband do not get one or a BF stay away from men they will make you wanna kill them. I take essential lavender baths that is my happiness I get them wholesale at a great website let me know if you want it. Lavender is a good help but not gonna fix anything. I drink braggs apple cider vinager supposed to help balance you I think that worked I noticed my pain in my neck decreased as well as my cuts heal very quickly. Its not miracle but I will continue it has much health benefits. Exercise is my very best friend and I listen to you tube affirmations and self help podcast. I love meditation to God my fav. There is no cure for this monster but we must stick together and get through it. I wonder if our symptoms are worse now or less the in early times. I believe our lifestyle can really hinder this monster so try to stay away from people when you are feeling angry. I wish I could help you but I need help myself. At the very least support will be nice.

I am trying thc honey to see if I can sleep through the night sweats I am also going to see a pastor who claims healing acne deliverance that is exactly what I want to be set free at 55 this late bloomer thing sucks

Not acne and