I am the same way, after 2 years I still get fooled. I will have a couple good days like you say and I start thinking and feeling guilty that im not working. The MD always puts me back in my place, like it's teasing me or something.

Its like a fire that is always there, get to close and you get burned, don't watch it or try to control it, you get burned. I am now use to getting burned and will fight to get some normalcy. I enjoy life in bits and pieces now days, like eating mash potatoes that someone dumped too much pepper on, can eat around the edges and it is good, one bad taste and I am sick and takes forever to get over the bad after taste.

God bless!

Rich

I'm sorry the good times were short-lived... Have you ever been able to foresee the attacks? I haven't but was curious if others have.

The vertigo is so hard to deal with. I enjoy those good days. Knowing the attacks don't last long, for me, and I am still alive when they are over, helps me through it . Like you, once I have another attack, it is hard to move forward without fear.

It's weird how a little part of you thinks(with every attack) "maybe this is the last one...ever". Only to be disappointingly wrong. At least they're shorter lived now.

That's my favorite part. When you finally come out of one you know another one is coming. I am hanging on to work by my fingernails but am in a dizzy daze a lot. I have been doing my job a long time and they will take me slightly damaged as long as I show up. Lets hope for a better tommorrow.
Kerry

I know just how you feel I have had a good 2 weeks and the bam thurs night it started. felt fine this morn then about 10 am started to get dizzy again at work .I had to give up my old career as a union iron worker made big bucks now working a crap job as a janitor for 1/3 the pay cleaning up after slobs my boss is cool and covers me as best he can but this md is about the cruelest thing that can happen to a person. At times it makes me question my faith how can God allow this to happen to good people when I see so many shitheads happily wander thru life with no repercussions it hardly seems fair.. I sometimes wonder if I am dead and this is my time in purgatory it gets me down but I wont let it beat me cause I want to enjoy my twin granddaughters growing up I will not be denied this pleasure!

troxman399

I am very sorry that you are having such difficulty in your life with the MD, work and faith. There is a path we all follow in regards to excepting this condition. I feel that as time goes forward and after much personal change, things will begun to get better for you. I always looked at life, not so much as a guaranteed road that gets better with age but more like a book of many chapters, the next much different than the one before. In this book anything can happen. I remember when I got divorced from my first wife, never in a million years did I think I would be anything but a great dad and a great supporter of my family and community. All this changed and today, though I am very happy, I also am very ill. I guess that is how this chapter is being written. One thing that has helped me the most is my faith in God. I do not know if you had a good relation with your dad or not, I do not know if your dad is alive or not. My father is gone, been now for 20 years. Many times I wish I could ask him for his help, his advise and his love. I know his answer to me would probably not change my situation, but the comfort I would draw from him would lift me up and get me through. As strong as my love for dad is I understand I still have a father who watches over me, the difference between the two is that I had my father here on earth for a time, just as I am here for a time, just as you are here for those girls of yours for a time. Our time on earth represents just a flash in the spectrum of the life eternal. What we are here for, why we exist is to get ready for that next big chapter. What is going on with other people dose not matter, it there own book to keep, they will struggle too, and they will have moments of dark shadows. Keep in mind your heavenly father hears you and will reassure you, will give your strength to persevere.

I hope some of this helps, will keep you in prayer as you work through the troubles of this day. Many here on this site are here for you also, other people do care about you! You are a very important person in the world!

God bless

Rich

Catalina, I think you have stated the biggest challenge of living with MD. I am exactly like you in this regard. On a good day I make all sorts of plans for my life and feel I can take on the world. A day or two later...BAM! I'm back on the sofa feeling so awful, I'm too sick to even worry about my future. Here's a thought. From reading the posts we know we all go through this hope and despair cycle, over and over again. But if I look at the hope side of it, I see the strength of our shared human nature. We don't give up hope. We don't give up. We keep trying. New treatments, new ways to cope, new adaptations of our lives to make it all work. We believe for a short while that we might return to our "normal" pre-MD days. But this IS our new normal. This is it. And even though we might feel foolish for thinking we can return to the old days and then having our MD kick us in the butt, there is such strength in that hope, that will to fight for the life we want. I am in the process now of trying to throwing out all my old expectations and look at life from a fresh perspective. I am trying to see what a satisfying, successful life WITH MENIERE"S will look like for me. I'm not there yet. But if I didn't have those days of hope in between the days of misery, I wouldn't even have the motivation to try to improve the life I do have. I'm not trying to say I have this all figured out. I'm searching like everyone here. But I hope these thoughts help you somewhat. At the very least, you know you're not alone.
Rebecca

As I read your all responses, I cant help but cry. we all go through so much, so many changes in our everyday lives, our way of thinking in every aspect with this disease. But like all of you, after I stop crying I keep going. I have two precious granddaughters that need me. There was a time in my life where I would say, that once my kids are grown, working and living on their own it would be ok for my life to end. I was ready for God to take me. Then these two little angels came into my life. A 5 year old and 7 month old. How could I even think of leaving now! The 5 year old knows when grandma is feeling bad. She brings me water and a blanket, even with this horrible hear! LOL Now I think I can not give up, I have to keep looking for an answer. Thank you all for being there. I wish I could tag you all on this response. God bless you all so much!

If anyone is a believer never ever forget the promise of a new body! There will be a better day when nothing hurts and you can get out of bed and you have energy and do not have to worry about the future. Like Rich said we are only here for a little while. I figure I can't make anything better by slowing down. I have already blown out my body so I am going to go like crazy until I can't anymore. I am just coming out of that parenting my kids faze and we met our grandkids for the first time last summer. Grandkids are a blast!

Here's a good read on how a person got relief with MD.

http://www.menieresfoundation.org/johnsregimen.htm

I am following this regime and seems to work a bit for me. Its too early but worth a try. If you have already done so then please ignore.

I am having bilateral MD. This seems much worse.

Yes, I too have been there. Thinking I could maybe do some sort of work after a couple good weeks. Then, out of nowhere I get knocked down again. I think we become accustomed to people telling us.. "oh, well, you look good". In my opinion, it works on our sub conscious a little. I have not worked in almost 2 years. In that time, I have had MAJOR episodes, minor episodes. I just never know when it will hit me. I do know that August is ALWAYS a bad month for me for some reason. We will see how it goes!!