I have found it difficult to handle stress this last year. I know it's the disease because I'm not someone who has ever had anxiety. My body just keeps yelling at me but there are some things that are completely out of our control.  We can't up and leave our lives to rid us of stress.  Just having a family can stress you out in ways that you would never have thought possible.  Our kids are grown and on their own but we are all very close so when something happens to one of them it happens to me.  I want to be strong for them, I want to help them but I suffer sometimes when I do and have fear of the toll it will have on me.  My face is full of something like psoriasis and last night my chest broke out into a rash all over my chest.  I hate my body.  

My husband and I just sold our house November 17th, we had 2 weeks to move out because of certian circumstances.  We had to move into my Hubby's father's home for the mean time then we find out that we can't purchase a home worth more than $50,000 because he had just changed full time professions into 2 part time professions and the bank wouldn't loan us more until he has been there longer than 2 years.  I make a meager wage. We moved in hopeing to help him while helping us.  Living with his father for the past few months has shown us that he is cognative impairment/beginning of dementia that you wouldn't know unless you live with him.  We had dinner with him and the family every Wednesday at his house.  We have our own space, large bedroom and living area and bathroom but we share a kitchen and it's so crowded with junk and we can't do anything right.  He is not nice and an be mean.  He is hovering over us whenever we do anything and wants to know why we are doing what we are doing.  He blames us for SO many things that he has done and doesn't remember doing them.  I am a in home caregiver by trade and know what this is like and how to deal with it but it has become so very stressful on us living with it. He doesn't understand that I am sick because I look normal and that I can't eat like him.  He brings me foods that I can't eat no matter how many times I tell him.  Whew, that was just a small portion of that story.  During all this our oldest daughter got engaged and married in just under 3 months time on December 27th. There was good reason for that also and out of our control.  Now my other daughter is having some incredible marriage problems.  

Thanks for letting me vent.  I need this place to get it out.  Ok, pity party over.