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Even though I have been clean and sober from marijuana and other drugs and alcohol for a few years now, I still have the occasional "using dream".
Last night I dreamed I was, of all places, in the parking lot of a 12 step meeting place, and I was taking hits in my car, and that familiar memory of "the mores" as I understand them, that bottomless pit of never being satisfied no matter how much I smoked, as I smoked.
I'm glad I'm not living that way today, one day at a time, thanks to a spiritual program of the 12 steps including marijuana anonymous and AA. I lived that way for so long. It was so familiar to me to dream that experience, the hiding so no one would see, the carelessness of doing something illegel in my car, even attempts to dispose of some evidence in case I got pulled over, the shame of some people looking over the fence and risk getting caught, not to mention I was no good to anyone in my condition of just wanting "more". Yeah, I've seen those joke stickers or something that say "marijuana, at least it's not crack" Anyway the way it had a hold on me for so long it was similar in my opinion.
Last night I dreamed I was, of all places, in the parking lot of a 12 step meeting place, and I was taking hits in my car, and that familiar memory of "the mores" as I understand them, that bottomless pit of never being satisfied no matter how much I smoked, as I smoked.
I'm glad I'm not living that way today, one day at a time, thanks to a spiritual program of the 12 steps including marijuana anonymous and AA. I lived that way for so long. It was so familiar to me to dream that experience, the hiding so no one would see, the carelessness of doing something illegel in my car, even attempts to dispose of some evidence in case I got pulled over, the shame of some people looking over the fence and risk getting caught, not to mention I was no good to anyone in my condition of just wanting "more". Yeah, I've seen those joke stickers or something that say "marijuana, at least it's not crack" Anyway the way it had a hold on me for so long it was similar in my opinion.
Waking up brings such relief. To know I am sober and moving toward five months is such a good feeling!
Anyway, in this dream, I didn't have any weed. I had all this paraphanelia and other smokeable herbal tobacco stuff, so that had to do. What an awful feeling to want to score and not be able to, even in a dream.
Relieved this is in my past for today.