Marijuana Addiction & Recovery Support Group
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so I was at one ponit didnt smoke anything for a yr..abit befor my nanny passed i started once n awhile smokeing hash(cuz it dosent give me the bad effect weed dose now)well since my nanny passed i have been smokeing more hash..not to hide my feelings or anything like that only on weekends..last two weekends i smoked once each weekend ( witch i didnt really want to at frist then i give in) my cuzin gave me a small ball of hash tonite...I sit here thinking should i or shouldnt i ..i really dont want to smoke I just dont feel its "me" anymore but at the same time I want it! i mean if i smoke the small bit i get a little hi and im ok anymore fucks with my bipolar and i should really fouse on my heath only but I dont drink or anything.. its nice to realx once n awhile..but my poor brain cells and mental health!!! I think i mite just give this to my boyfriend he can have it then maybe i'll only smoke a little once n while (this little ball could last just me a while) The debate in my head its over whelling!!!...should I...Should'nt I ;S hmmm
I guess its hard decision but how did you relax during the year you didnt smoke?
did it work?
Try using different way to relax for one weekend and see if you can build on it,
if you do decide you want to stop totally there is lots of support here,
meanwhile let us know how ts going while your deciding, sometimes it helps to get thoughts down in black and white rather than running around your head.
Im sorry about your nanny.
That's quite a quandary for someone in your position.
I think most of us here (at least the responsible people) would say "don't" (especially with your bi-polar issues), but we can't make the decision for you.
And if I could offer a suggestion-- Do you think you could use some punctuation and/or capital letters? ---It would make your posts much easier to read.
I offered a suggestion that she do one or two things a little bit differently, so that my feeble mind can follow her posts a bit better---rather than a huge block of text that all looks the same.
Sorry if I killed your buzz (again).
My sponsor tells me quit "should-ing" on myself.
Maybe read the Life With Hope book on the marijuana anonymous website www.marijuana-anonymous.org and see if you can relate and if it inspires you.