It sounds like you're on the border of being an addict and a heavy smoker. I don't know much about using pot to cope with physical pain. I thought I would use it for depression, but it just made matters worse. I got tot he point were nothing mattered to me, not a family, not my job, nothing. Smoking got to be an obsession that nearly destroyed my life. It does sound like it's creating more problems for you than it is solving. See if there isn't another way to deal with the physical pain. Fact of the matter is, if you're not an addict, you should have no trouble putting it down and leaving it alone.

I do have a problem putting it down and leaving it alone. Honestly its been my life since i can remember. I quit when i was 20 for a month and the only reason is b/c i went to the Marines. Its all i thought about when i was in and then i got injured, To make a long story short i got kicked out for smoking a joint. Then when i got out i just got right back into it. It was the only thing that i found happiness in, being kicked out and injured as you can imagine i was pretty depressed... I've been trying to quit for about two years i would say to try and better my life and get a good job. But i find myself being able to quit for about a month and then just falling right back into it again. Since it was the only thing i did, now i don't know what to do. I want to get a good career but with my back idk what to do again. Just stressed about everything and know that for me weed is not good for me. I can't smoke responsibly and i understand that. Its just not easy to leave behind the only thing you ever got pleasure out of. And i've found myself in the same situation i've lost everyone socially b/c i relied on weed for everything. And i believe it(and me) has destroyed my life. Its all i think about still. Just reading this i see what a messed up dude i am, other people have no problem with it, but for me its like crack. Honestly just need someone to talk to about staying on the right track.

Hey, and welcome to the forum.

The reason you are here is because you know you have a problem with it. Otherwise, you wouldn't be here. First stage to recovery is accepting that you have a problem and opening up about it is going to help you. Sometimes you just have to bite the bullet and realise that it is causing you alot of harm.

It is not worth your sanity and your life for a little buzz. It's time to put the herb down my friend, graduate in life to new experiences.

Join the gym and get active. During the initial stages keep yourself busy and reward yourself with the money you would have spent on weed by buying yourself something you've wanted for a while.. A new TV, computer..? Could be anything.

After awhile you will wonder why you even touched the stuff. You're better than that, I wish you all the best. Keep us posted.