Marijuana Addiction & Recovery Support Group

This community is dedicated to those looking to overcome their addiction to marijuana, a drug produced from parts of the cannabis plant. Join the group to find support among people who are also looking to cease their habit of smoking marijuana, share your experience, and get advice. It's not easy to kick the habit, but together we can.

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waddlesworth06 07/01/2012

Hi Everyone,
My name is Shelly and I'm new to this support group. I'm 37yo. I've been using pot for 14yrs. I'm addicted to prescription drugs and alcohol as well.I've been clean from alcohol for 10yrs. Pot is a family drug for me. My husband uses as does my 16yo daughter. I want to quit everything that is addictive in my life. As of today, I got 2 days clean from prescription drugs. I went to my first NA meeting last night. I cried and felt relief when I admitted I am an addict. I first admitted to the prescription drugs when I was in the hospital for the second time this year a couple of weeks ago. My addiction has caused me to try and take my life several times. I feel so alone. I'm afraid of some of the changes that may occur do to my getting clean, i.e. family not quitting, or losing family. I'm not a believer in the Christian "God". I do however, believe in a higher power. I'm trying to find more spirituality and fellowship.
I have high anxiety issues which pot helps sometimes but I don't want to make excuses for using. Dr. was suppose to put me on a non-addictive medication but has yet to do so. So, I self- medicate. :(
I'm open minded to advice and suggestions.

deleted_user 07/04/2012

Hi and welcome to the forum.

Good for you for going to NA, I think their program has a lot to offer, and I think a program or "plan" is essential for beating addiction. When I first quit over two years ago I spent a lot of time in their chat room and attended online meetings too.

Don't feel alone - gachillions of people get tricked into addictions, and you're now working your way out. How are you doing?

waddlesworth06 07/05/2012

Lucy,
I feel horrible. I want to quit sooo bad but, the fears of the what ifs are keeping me down. Today is my first day of quitting, mainly cause we're out and that makes me happy for once. Usually I would panic but...
Also, I need to tell family that I'm quitting as of today. Maybe then it will get easier (so to speak). Maybe they won't smoke around me or they'll quit too. Its very unlikely they will though.
I'm going to go to meetings as often as I can. I want to get their reference book and all other related materials. Right now I've been reading AA's Big Book and the 12 & 12. I know they are simuliar so its helping with my other addictions also. I have a friend in recovery that is taking me to a meeting tonight. Every little bit helps I know.

deleted_user 07/07/2012

Hi Shelly,

I'm so sorry you felt so horrible. But I really admire you for wanting to stop an addiction, and if you quit drinking 10 years ago, you obviously have some good skills. I meant to say MA not NA in my last post. Where I live there are no meetings, so I was online a lot and it was such a help.

I remember too, the struggle to tell people I was quitting. That was a big step, it made my inside decision "real" and also made a possible relapse harder.I don't think I could have done it if I lived with smokers.

How are you doing? Sending strength and peace!

waddlesworth06 07/07/2012

I told them I was quitting. It lasted 2 days then I relasped. I got anxiety attacks so bad that i couldn't function. Maybe my way of thinking on this is wrong but i'm going to taper down until I get to see dr. for anxiety meds. Because of my additive history they won't give me anything that i could get addicted to. i got a new dr. to help with that. i see dr in 2 weeks. I'm determined to quit so that gives me a quit date that isn't too far off and I'm not binging.

How are you doing? How did you quit? How are you holding up now?

deleted_user 07/08/2012

Good for you for staying determined and making good choices to move forward. When I first quit I was shakey - I too relapsed after two days - someone offered it to me and after years of saying yes, how could I have the strength to say no? That scared me, I had finally woken up to what addiction really does - destroy us. So, I told him not to offer anymore and one by one I told my smoking friends, and I got up the resolve to throw away everything in my house that even reminded me of smoking.

Since then (2 and a half years ago) I have not relapsed. I come here everyday, I read spiritual books, I stay away from certain people and places. It may sound fakey-dramatic, but my life IS a joy. I get things done, I accomplish goals, I'm beginning to trust myself, my skin looks better, I have more energy.

It's crazy now to think about - before I could not have imagined life without pot, and now it breaks my heart to think what I did to myself.

You can do this, lots of people do. Have you checked out the MA online site and chat room? The DS forum doesn't have a lot going on these days.

deleted_user 07/13/2012

I am what seems like the twelfth round of Day Two. And the hard part for me is that my husband smokes too. I have found that changing the context is much smarter than relying on willpower, which varies throughout the day. Can you be as kind to yourself as humanly possible? Yesterday and today I decided that the only useful productive thing I had to do was to not smoke - I still went to work and took care of my little one but I drastically lowered my expectations. Hope that's helpful.

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