I am 22 years old, I graduated HS in 2012 and started smoking weed in 2010. It was a slow procces but it resulted in me being now, a heavy smoker. I smoke almost everyday, I could go through an endless supply of weed if I had the option. I have always had a high tolerance for things and I think that played a factor in heavy smoking for me. Honestly, I dont want to smoke anymore but as of the past few years when I wake up in the morning my stomach aches so bad, harsh strong pain and the quickest way to relive it is smoking. I didnt start smoking to get high, it was recreational and that result in weed having an association with everything in my life. Now I DO smoke to get high, not much else sometimes. Its become routine, almost ritualistic. I really dont want to smoke, its affecting my health, my fitness, my relationships with others, me and my gf and of course getting a job. They say Marijaunna has no addictive wualities but I call bs because I feel the need. I smoked more after my parents split in 2011, i used it to have fun, to forget the bs and to get away. I started making everyhthing associated with smoking. "Hey lets go friesbee golf, lets smoke first! Hey lets go see a movie, we should smoke first!". It became a thing where weed was the only way I felt doing thing normally was fun. I dont like it, I want to stop, I feel like if I do ill have mood swings and my body will hurt and ill feel bored and alone. Almost all my friends smoke weed regualarly and the temptaion is very high knowing that. I need help understanding why I do this, how I can stop and how I can keep myself encouraged, with my friends and healthy.

-CJ