Loneliness Support Group
Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any...
I have never felt this low and horribly, horribly lonely. Everything is just... awful.
I spent the hour drive home from work Friday crying. I curled up on my couch in my pjs and ate an entire pizza (no one wanted me when I was skinny so whats the pont). I spent the entire weekend in my apartment, in my pjs with the blinds shut.
I've put on more weight and have zero motivation to lose it, my job is terrible and while I live in a boom city, I cant get some one to hire me. I go home to a crappy empty apartment that smells like mould, but with the rental availability at nearly 0%, I need to stay. All of my friends that I make plans with dont return my calls to verify if we are doing something. Same with my only sibling I speak to, because the other one is married to a control freak, who wont let me speak to my sister of her kids (guy moved them to the middle of nowhere. My sister is absolutely in love with this sociopath).
The only person I have in this world that I look forward to seeing is my cat, who is nearly 17, and on her way out. I have never EVER been this low before. Not when my dad died, not when my mom sold the house, left me and my underage brother and I had to work full time and go to school full time to make ends meet, not when my fiancee left me for some one 10 years my jr. I have no hope left, and feel like I am invisible. Its this strange hollow feeling, like I dont quite exist. I feel so alone. I cant make this feeling go away.
I spent the hour drive home from work Friday crying. I curled up on my couch in my pjs and ate an entire pizza (no one wanted me when I was skinny so whats the pont). I spent the entire weekend in my apartment, in my pjs with the blinds shut.
I've put on more weight and have zero motivation to lose it, my job is terrible and while I live in a boom city, I cant get some one to hire me. I go home to a crappy empty apartment that smells like mould, but with the rental availability at nearly 0%, I need to stay. All of my friends that I make plans with dont return my calls to verify if we are doing something. Same with my only sibling I speak to, because the other one is married to a control freak, who wont let me speak to my sister of her kids (guy moved them to the middle of nowhere. My sister is absolutely in love with this sociopath).
The only person I have in this world that I look forward to seeing is my cat, who is nearly 17, and on her way out. I have never EVER been this low before. Not when my dad died, not when my mom sold the house, left me and my underage brother and I had to work full time and go to school full time to make ends meet, not when my fiancee left me for some one 10 years my jr. I have no hope left, and feel like I am invisible. Its this strange hollow feeling, like I dont quite exist. I feel so alone. I cant make this feeling go away.
From what you say you have been so strong for so long and put everyone else first while ignoring your own pain. The time for change is now - put yourself first. Once you start feeling more positive more things will fall in place for you. This will pass, you know it will. Have you seen a doctor to be assessed for depression? Hugs and take care
I can relate mostly to driving home from work, especially during Nov and Dec, when the skies were grey or it was cold and feeling lonely
and depressed. If you Google, 'healthy award workplaces' and your
state, you can find good places to work.
Management needs to clean up the mold. It's possibly harming your health. If they won't listen to reason, you can probably find a better place to live. I saw a commercial for an app that sends you new listings immediately.
Do you think you and your cat that you have now, could get used to a new kitten? It wouldn't be to replace her, but more company for
both of you, and a great comfort to you, later. Just something to consider.
So many people who have to work nights, week-ends, etc, would love two days in a row, to stay in, eat take-out and do what they like. I'm
so glad I worked weekdays only. I could count on doing whatever I
wanted, every week-end, as long as it didn't cost very much:)
Things have been too difficult for you for a long time, but, hopefully, good things will come your way, soon. Hope is always there, and it is much more comforting than tallying up all the disappointments.
Sending good thoughts to you.