Loneliness Support Group
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Anybody willing to admit their toxic parents to blame?
My lowlife, drunken, cold-hearted parents were good at brainwashing, isolating, bad mouthing me, and otherwise ignoring me.
Maybe I was too traumatized to actually think about this for decades; just plain turned my brain off and sleepwalked through life.
But, now, in my old age, with one step in the grave, I can say I'm glad my scumbag parents are dead.
My lowlife, drunken, cold-hearted parents were good at brainwashing, isolating, bad mouthing me, and otherwise ignoring me.
Maybe I was too traumatized to actually think about this for decades; just plain turned my brain off and sleepwalked through life.
But, now, in my old age, with one step in the grave, I can say I'm glad my scumbag parents are dead.
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A tree outside where I live is dying, seemingly from dog urine----with the bully in my building going out his way to not only have his dog urinate there but to have the dog urinate on the fence and sign I bought to try save the tree----and then slide the sign under my apt door.Turns out that was a TRIGGER for me----bullying and humialtion right out of high school. I didn't realize it at the...
But all I can think of is that they did their best to raise me. But to this day I havent said I love you as a family member. Its never crossed my mind, I should at least say it once because they are caring. But that part of me that has brewed the hate of a thousand souls. I fear only madness remains in my mind.
But seeing as how many people have these toxic parents, I would admit mine were toxic enough. I dont know much about my actual parents, I just know at some point my dad was either desperate, given up, or he actually loved someone who was weak. But in weakness comes strength.
Reading your post made me think of people who I worked with for over 30 years who have isolated me in my new community 750 miles away by gossipping about me - it's gone on for decades. It doesn't seem possible that anyone could have accomplished this much damage to someone's life just by gossipping.
I'm sorry you were treated horribly by your parents.
The only thing that would probably explain, not justify, any of it would be a glimpse of them as little children, and what sort of hell they almost certainly.endured.
My mother resented me for as far back as I can remember. She had me when she was still a kid, herself. She used to talk about her drunken father chasing her and her siblings around the house with a shotgun. Nobody emerges as Donna Reed after something like that.
My answer would certainly be...no!
for RyzeUplyte:
I'm even glad, at this point, that my parents never hugged me; would be creepy to have such people like them do. My dad did, once, during some ordeal, say he "lvd" (even that word seems creepy coming out of him). That's the effect my parents had on me.
for PinterestFan & Poohbear
I, ME, definately waste too much time obsessing and obsessing and obsessing, though right now with the excuse that I COULDN'T (?) think out this stuff while living with my parents or while they were alive. But, next year, tomorrow, hoping to end that. In my diary, the usual day's events is just a short passage, but in seperate "thoughts" section, I might have 30 pages, total. Hopefully, just a brief run-down of the day in my diary from now on.
A big apology to everyone, too, as I'm new to this site, figuring out how everything works here---and definately a strange, new, experience to reveal all this stuff, to nice people.
A happy new year's to you all!