I am SO sorry! You have my deepest and sincerest condolences! You are in my prayers and thoughts.

Animals love us like no human being can.

I too am quite lonely and I feel it everyday. As I get older, I reflect and think more about things that happened in my life and life choices that I have made. Now I have to live with them. I thank God everyday for all that I have!

I am here for you to listen and help in anyway that I can.!

Hugs!

i'm sorry you feel so alone. i hope finding us helps because it has helped me to know that i am not alone and we can all talk about this honestly together.
i am not sure what fb is... i think family based when i think fb, but that does not fit....

You sound a lot like me. I adore cats. Pets. Animals. I've lost so many before. Some people simply do not understand how much comfort they bring you. My eldest cat is 19 now and she isn't looking to good. I think you sleeping with the urns really opened me up. I think you're a super strong person. I simply could not bare the thought of sleeping next to a loved one who wasn't in the form I remember them. For that I think you're really brave. And also, you're trying. You have your mind occupied of the FB groups. You haven't given up. You also have ambitions, or what I think are ambitions anyway. You say if you were healthy enough you'd be out and about. That's a strong will. You're actually an inspiration just from a paragraph. When loved ones pass we do feel alone. We have no idea it's happening all around us. And so many people feel exactly the same way. We're just lucky to be here in this day and age. And to be able to access a support group like this. Thank you for sharing this. You seem really kind and I think you'll have no trouble making awesome new friends <3

Thank you paiste.. it's true about animals. They love us so unconditionally. They would follow me around the house and I would talk to them.. and they talked back ;) Night was really our best time because I had things to do during the day, and they would sleep. Nighttime was play and snuggle time. They both slept with me.... and in the last year.. right on me! It is torturous to be without them. When you've been with a pet who is your best friend.. the loss is very intense. It's very hard.

I understand about living with the choices we've made too. I've had to come to terms with a lot of things too. The "what if's" can really put you in a bad place. We never know what our lives would have been if we made other choices. But all in all.. we are stuck with the ones we made... that "what if's " only really torture us... because we can't go back we can only go forward and do the best with what we are living with. These are the conclusions I've come to. Some people are dealt a more difficult deck of cards then others, but whatever we have, we have to try and make the best of it and enrich our lives to the best of our ability. I feel this really strongly. No one has to live inside us but us..we have to be able to look in the mirror and find the respect for ourselves whatever our fight is. It's not easy.. but I think when we finally can forgive ourselves (at least for me there were issues there).. and respect ourselves for doing the best we can, we feel better about ourselves. Hugs right back at you <3 <3

Jersey I mean Facebook when I type FB. I spend a lot of time there but sometimes it drives me a little crazy too. I find it's hard to make friends.. they're really more superficial, and I'm not that kind of person. I administer a few groups .. one by myself and two others that also have other administrators. In one of those groups, I'm having a hard time. I've been there almost a year, but there are a bunch of other administrators that are there and been friends for years. I'm the newer kid on the block, so to speak, and they really have not let me in their click. It's made me really feel like an outsider, an I do get down about it. They all talk to each other about "whatever", but if I say something, it's mostly ignored. It brings back bad memories of school days to me of clicky situations. But I do love the group, and being an administrator there.. so I've been trying to just get involved in the group and not pay it any mind. To ignore being ignored???? But it's hard. I don't know that I will keep the job.. I'm thinking about it. I can still be a member of the group and just resign as an admins. But that would cause hard feelings too. Time will tell but it's on my mind.. . hugs <3 <3

Absorb...Wow that is an old gal.. good for you, that you've kept her going so long. You know I hate cremation, but it was really my only option unless I buried them in a pet cemetery. We can't bury them here where I live outside on our property. So I decided, if they go before me, that I would have them cremated (yuk)... and then get a coffin for myself. I have my notes that when I pass that they are to go in the coffin with me, along with some other things. I had stuffed animals made from pictures of them. I have the one from my gal that passed months ago, and the other is in progress, don't have it yet. There are a couple of places on the internet that do that. If you are interested. So I sleep with the stuffed animal, the urns and the fur I have of them. It's the best I can do. It does give me some comfort and I do cry of course. The house full of them in spirit you know? Thank you for all the lovely things you said about me.. it's always nice to get a compliment :). You sound "together" whether you feel it or not :). Loneliness is supposedly the biggest issue people are facing. I read an article about it not all that long ago. There is so much loneliness out there... for a variety of reasons.

Yes, thank goodness for the computer.. I find it easier to make friends with guys then girls.. and I do miss my old girlfriends. I did push myself today to call one girl that I met in a facebook group about a year ago.. She's a very nice person. We don't have tons in common, but I think we both enjoyed the chat, just to connect and share. We've talked before.. Sometimes we have to make the effort to take that chance. I have found that the girls in the group that ignore me mostly I was talking about, to be a big disappointment. I really expected to make some friends there. So here I am pouring my heart out as we all do here, and it feels good to share, thank you Hugs <3 <3