I didn't read your journal. Everyone here is a regular person just like you. I would think if you are that concerned, you would want a professional answer so you get the truth and you will need to see a licensed professional therapist to get that. Good luck and many hugs.

Part 2 is done. I have already been to 1. She said that I had nothing to do with it but I don't feel convinced. I blame myself for not being able to stop it.

I think even if you had showed him kid porn (which disgusts me to even type)....that you are not responsible for his actions. The guilt is normal....and I speak from experience.

why he did what he did you may never know unless he had some sort of counselling and they get to the root of the problem. from what you have written there is nothing indicating that you are at fault for his actions. its understandable that you care about him and feel guilt for his action however its not your fault.

I'm the one he blames for everything.

Wow....Drew....you are NOT alone in THAT!
I'm the one my daughter blames for everything too.... :(

I think it's pathetic to put blame on others when they are the ones who hurt other people. How does the boy convince his grand mother that I had anything to do with it when she knows that he is a compulsive liar. I hate them for belittling me and not putting the blame where it's supposed to be. Him and him alone. I wish you all could see how vindictive these people are and the lies that have been murdered. They know better than to accuse me to my face but I hear what is said because of family that they tell.

Checking in on you hon and sending you another quote. This last post that you wrote did upset me. I hope you are doing better.

1. Do not, I repeat, do not
allow anyone to sit above and look down at you to judge you.
Everyone has a chapter in their life that they don't read out loud.

1. And never forget my favorite 5 letter word. :::KARMA

Hugs GB

My sister's ex husband ended up with her two sons.. I'm still not sure how he won custody... but one of my nephews was in jail for the same thing. The other went thru a rough spell and is now a welder, happily married and doing well.

Even if you had full custody from birth sometimes things happen to your children when they are away. It's not normally even easy to get them to tell someone bad things are or have happened.

And each child can respond differently. Most will look for someone to blame. As they work thru it they will (or at least hopefully will) finally realize they need to take responsibility for their own actions.

I'm so sorry for your other losses.... it sounds like you should focus on you for right now. Hugs!

Whenever I see your posts, I like to answer them after the fact to see if you are doing any better? Are you hon? You are always being thought about and I always have you in my prayers. Lots of hugs GB

I feel like I am doing much better. I think that I have made good friends on here and in my personal life. I am very happy that I have friends who care and I often think of you Gb. You have helped me a lot.

There are others here that have shown that they care here and I am so glad that I have such a large group of supporters. I am very fortunate. I thank you all.