Loneliness Support Group
Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any...

You are not any of those things you said you are....You were made in the image of God so when you love yourself, you are loving God as well.
Try to forgive the past, let go of it and focus on the present. It will make you much happier.
God Bless
You are right about one thing. God loves you and cares for you. That's all that matters.