I can totally relate. I could rant for a solid month about my daughters:)

Carry on as if something wonderful is coming your way very soon.
There are still good people in the world, and good things still happen.

Truthfully, there are so many m i s e r a b l e people, everywhere. I went to the hair salon today, and two of the sylists were saying that after over 20 years, they couldn't stand their husbands, just because they annoyed them. Misery really does love company - I was extra content tonight.

I know how you feel. I did the same for my daughter and she stopped talking to me due to her mom. It's been about 5 years and still the same. I love and miss her, and looking at her picture still makes me sad.

Recently, after another incident I came to the realization that we cannot force someone to love you or expect them to love you just because you do. I love my kids and just because they don't love me, didn't make my love for them weak or pointless. It wasn't wasted. I still love them and want all the happiness for them. Yes, I did feel disappointed and dejected, and still do, but I live in the hope that one day they will understand. Even if they don't, I'll still love them.

Friends being a disappointment. YES. Enough said.

As for you disappearing, sorry to disappoint you, but yes you would be missed. We often take people for granted when they are around us, but if you take that person out of your life, even for a few moments, you notice the void that is there. You may not see it or feel it, but there are people who care for you. I thought the same way you did. But when I meet people who I thought didn't care or even remember me, I am surprised by the warm welcome.

Take it from someone who has, is going though, what you are dealing with, we'll make it.

Best wishes.