Loneliness Support Group
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Hi All
I have felt like this for a few year's off and on they has been times in my life i have felt so depressed that i have no friend's either because i had lost contact with them. or they had done me wrong some how. And do not feel they were a true friend. I sometimes think maybe i am meant to be alone for whatever reason or is it just me unable to form a true friendship : /. even tho i am genuine kind caring person and does like to socialize. maybe it is something else up with me. or maybe the friend's iv had are just all for themselves and not to be trusted :/. I also was in a relationship with a sociopath for 3 year's so i was isolated by him from friend's and some family memeber's. But the worst that has happened is my 2 and 1/2 year old twin son's been adopted because of my sociopathy ex partner so i feel more alone than ever before heartbroken and feel i am going crazy. i do not go out much even to the shop can be a struggle my sleepin patternt is bad i do want to try get some normality back into my life and socialize with some new people but it is hard as i am so depressed it is a viciouse circle. iv had no one to lean on as in a good friend through these hard times the worst time i will go through in my life i do not know how i have stayed so strong only for the sake of my son's otherwise i think i would of ended it by now this is how i feel i do not care if i live or die.
Loneliness has no mercy at times.................
as for your kids you don't have to explain the situation but is there something that states you cant see them where they in foster care then adopted
I guess sociopaths are painful to be around too
Sigh... Just awful
It will take some time for the pain to pass.... Let it pass... Don't keep it alive by thinking about it all the time
I know you can get through this and good times will come again. Are there any groups you can go to for a bit of company?
As for all your mates unfriending you maybe they were never good friend's to begin with ? did you try and argue your side to these so called friend's ? have you tried meeting new friend's ? (Maybe that is a silly question) I did see my son's 3 time's a week when they were in foster care i had to go to a contact center i alway's wanted more time with them but was never given it. i also had to put up with the back stabbing by the contact supervisor who take notes and watch me on all contact times i had with my son's and the foster carer been nasty and slagging me off and telling lies said she seen me in town with a male holding hand's and it was not my ex it was someone else i found all this out by requesting the notes about everything to do with the social services and notes telephone conversation's about me etc it made me so angry to read how two faced and nasty they were as if i was not going through enough heartless They are. It is very hard and very very painful i feel so guilty as my son's are not with me and i feel they have been let down massively even tho i was a victim and never intended for this to happen it's the looking back on everything and wishing i had the courage to leave my ex sooner. I really kill's me on top of it all how corrupt the whole system is and all the lies told in court proceeding's and they all get away with it only think i have is hope that something could happen to the adopter's Maybe they split up or something and the twin's be returned to my care that is all i can do is have that bit hope i will alway's want my son's back no matter how when in the future this may happen. i do not know how iv stayed so strong iv not had any support i know i need to join a support group and get some counselling it is just taking that step to do it it is hard as i do not go out hardly and put thing's off even going to the doctor's and shop's is hard to motivate myself . Iv sort of gone on a even more downward spiral my mood changes where i am more positive but then can quickly turn negative again it is eating me up all that they have done and seemed to have gotten away with it . I really hope my ex get's punished for this and all the pain and suffering he has caused on other's but mostly for been the cause why my beautiful son's are not with me there mother been looked after by me i will never forgive him i want to torture him. I still have not fully come to term's with what's happened. It is Harsh it is, my kid's are stolen simple as that i never agreed to the adoption and fought to the end to try get them back i even tried to get permission to oppose the adoption i had a passionate solicitor and barrister fighting my corner and was told i had a good argument but unfortunately this argument was not really heard as a higher judge did not give permission for me to do that and that was the end of a long two year battle. that was what kept me going is i still had a chance while it was still in court proceeding's or at least that is what i though but the system is corrupt and i am not the only victim of this. My heart is broken with out the two most important people in my life i have two choices to either totally give up and be defeated and rot away or i can try my best to try and have some happiness and move on i will always have my son's in my head and heart but i cannot do anything else i try and tried and for there sake i need to try get on with life and wait for the day i can hold them in my arm's again.
I actually went to the nhs for help with the pain of remembering rape, they wrote on my file that I falsely accused a man. This ripped my heart out as my therapist I cared for greatly. I still don't understand why that's On my notes, I guess someone didn't believe me or was being spiteful???
There's a whole load of other bunch of rubbish written about me in government files after ten years of being in the mental health system. I've only seen one document involving just a few snippets of the character deformation that's passed around about me.
I'm in the process of requesting my files and then I'm going to challenge everything. But I'm just so completely shocked to find that they just write anything to support their desired course of action with impunity and it's just assumed to be valid and truth!!!
When they wanted to send me out of area for treatment I happened to over look her shoulder and see the forms they were completing. Saying that I was behaving x y z ..... I was in very bad place at time so didn't take action. But basically I think to get me to that place they knew what the entry requirements were and just lied to get me in there!
How people behave especially in groups of power is just disgusting. This one poor girl was repeatedly beaten by her bf and couldn't cope so asked for help. The help she got from social services was to have the kids removed and to be left on her own with a list of orders to complete.
Even the foster carers have it bad!!! After years of looking after children they had this one boy who was very violent and repeatedly asked for treatment for him. She got cancer, she asked if the boy could be removed and they see him on weekends or monthly. The social worker came said "we'll bring him back Monday" then snatched him away in deceit never to return this boy they'd looked after for years. The boy was extremely distressed ran away from the next four homes and is now in an institution. The social services slandered the family saying they were abusive and banned them from looking after any more kids when they complained. Even though they fought the slander for years and eventually earnt an apology the damage was done. Their daughter was then banned from adopting
What makes me laugh is that in ten years not one professional has ever found out about my life story, what circumstances I'm having that are troubling me, or allowed me to share my feelings of distress for support. So they don't know me at all.... Yet somehow they manage to write ten files of what they imagine me to be!!!! And that's proof of who iam!!!
All they do is come to my home have a cup of tea and chit chat about tv and the weather!!! Yet all this juicy awful stuff is written about me. One stating that I'm a whore!!! Which makes me laugh because I'm not a sexual person at all! And I've been fighting to overcome this fear of sex my whole life so I can move forward and have a partner and family. Yet some @#@#@ thinks they have a right to write on my government file that I'm a compulsive slut!!! More like forty year old virgin!
Absolutely outrageous and disgusting. I'm so sorry that you got entangled in dealing with them, all I can suggest is to take record every meeting to cover your back with the out of vipers. Is there any way to start a process to get visiting rights or to get your sons back???
If definitely not, then we will support you to learn to cope with this. Having been completely screwed over for many years and my heart ripped out, I know that one day you too can feel better and ok again
Message me if you'd like to talk about what I've done to learn to cope and heal xx
How are you ?
I am not able to contact the Adopter's all i know is they are a male gay couple one work's and one stay's at home all day with the twin's i am not allowed to know much about them and i did want to meet them when it was in court proceeding's but the social worker put an obstacle in the way and said they were scared of my ex turning up and causing trouble and the adopter's were not comfortable with it. even tho my ex never attended with me to the building. was just an excuse. but i am going to find out about if i can have any sort of contact with the boy's in person and not just letter box contact maybe they can be an exception since it was not my fault the boy's got took and i am no risk to them. I will be your friend :) yeah i don't understand i think is it me why i do not seem to be able to have a truly close friend who i can trust and is not so selfish. even the friend's i had in school i do not have a friendship with as they are selfish and just leave me thinking what is there true intention's been my friend. I am a person who likes to go out and socialize or well i did do before the tragedy happened is frustrating when you have no one to do these thing's with anymore. your so rite there so cruel i have a question mark bubble over my head to why my son's got took from me with out pointing out the obvious i mean why did this have to happen to me to my son's : / i do know i will never get the answer to this as it is the universe that need's to answer and this is impossible, I do take each day as it comes. :)