Loneliness Support Group
Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any...
Im sad, Im desperate and Im alone.
Ive always been bad at expressing emotions, so bad in fact that Ive become known as Iron heart Emotionless and various other names. I know the names dont bother me, it actually gives me some reassurance that others notice how I am and that Im not just invisible.
I think what does bother me are the people who contribute to my loneliness and sadness. My family moved literally to the other side of the world last year, but they were unable to take my Grandmother, their Mother, with them and so I was thrust into being responsible for her wellbeing. You see, shes blind, barely able to walk and is exceptionally stubborn, refusing any help that is outside family i.e. me.
Dont get me wrong, I love my grandmother and I truly care for her, its just difficult to care for her whilst in my final year at University and alongside this Im also in a relationship. I think what Im getting at is that Im strained.
It has got to the point now where I feel trapped and although my partner is amazing, it feels like its another responsibility.
I have considered suicide.
Ive self-harmed in the past due to pressure and stress. It feels like the only genuine me time I get these days (and I can only dream of it kind of difficult to carry out whilst youre intimately with someone).
Im trapped and I cant breathe, what should I do?
This is a cry for help and although I feel guilty for expecting you to consider my problems, Ive finally found my last resort.
Ive always been bad at expressing emotions, so bad in fact that Ive become known as Iron heart Emotionless and various other names. I know the names dont bother me, it actually gives me some reassurance that others notice how I am and that Im not just invisible.
I think what does bother me are the people who contribute to my loneliness and sadness. My family moved literally to the other side of the world last year, but they were unable to take my Grandmother, their Mother, with them and so I was thrust into being responsible for her wellbeing. You see, shes blind, barely able to walk and is exceptionally stubborn, refusing any help that is outside family i.e. me.
Dont get me wrong, I love my grandmother and I truly care for her, its just difficult to care for her whilst in my final year at University and alongside this Im also in a relationship. I think what Im getting at is that Im strained.
It has got to the point now where I feel trapped and although my partner is amazing, it feels like its another responsibility.
I have considered suicide.
Ive self-harmed in the past due to pressure and stress. It feels like the only genuine me time I get these days (and I can only dream of it kind of difficult to carry out whilst youre intimately with someone).
Im trapped and I cant breathe, what should I do?
This is a cry for help and although I feel guilty for expecting you to consider my problems, Ive finally found my last resort.
Regardless of how stubborn your grandmother is, she will adjust to other arrangements.
Sending you good thoughts and wishes. You're entitled to live your own life and enjoy it.
You clearly need to take care of yourself. There is no shame in that.
Get help for both your sakes.
Hugs.
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I encourage you to talk to your loved ones about what you are thinking and feeling, even if it is in writing. It's your turn to have someone there for you now ~ on your side. You deserve to live the life you want for yourself and to reach your personal goals towards your own dreams, and to have them support you in that, and to help you in one way or another.
Wishing You Inner Peace &Serenity!