That sounds so like me. Alot of the time I've not really got anything to say. Lots of people resort to small talk and so on, but I always feel awkward starting a conversation, then having to abandon it because a lack of something else to say. When I end up mentioning the weather, my ideas are running out.
It seems like to get places in this western culture, ppl have got to constantly 'market' themselves like in a job interview. Display wit and humour, have a wide range of knowledge and many interests blah blah. To me, this is all a bit fake, unless you happen to be a total extrovert. I can understand that employers want to look for positive signs and enthusiasm etc and that is well and good, but when it comes to making friends, it seems like the laws of 'nature' apply, where the alpha male or female gets first pick of friends.
It's like survival of the fittest and it shouldn't be this way.
Peace :-)

Hi. I am a bit the same. Think it could be because primary schooling was quite strict in my case. It is weird, and it is such a shame that respect is underappreciated sometimes.
I suppose you might need to find a way to communicate your interests in a more simple way. best wishes.

I'm not social at all either so I stay alone alot. I can talk well to close friends but not in a crowd. But it's hard to make friends when I don't socialize/

I do not socialize much either.......I once was a very social person but did not understand the social world very well myself. It was weird to me how everyone interacted as if they enjoy each others company but a lot of the times are just putting on a show just to entertain each other in one form or another and it creates a lot of needless drama so I guess I'm still trying to grasp the idea of being social but its hard to do when certain things are engrained in you from how you were raised.

Same here, i don't just jump into a conversation other ppl are having. I was raised to respect other ppl and don't talk while they are talking. So I find myself alone also, I have a quite little voice and other ppl talk over me too. So I know the feeling...

like ladyrose people talking over me is a problem too... i dont even post long posts when interacting online! lol! Ive only had 2 boyfriends in my life one i married and i was in my early 20s w/my first boyfriend. I ran from socialization and it was worse if i felt the guy liked me. i was just too scared. i find it hard to make friends bc i dont do the fake bullshit either. ive tried being genuinely friendly but ppl my age already have an established grp of friends.

I hate it so much when people talk over me, and pretend like they didn't realize they did so...it ruins my confidence and makes everything so much harder..

Yes. I thank you all for your input. But now I am at this level:
People may care and offer me great words of comfort.
However, the help I need never comes. Therefore I must
daily crawl back into my hole of accepting "patience."
I guess God wants it that way.