My problem is that I just cant fit in in anywhere, can't make friends and I'm so sad all the time. I've been homeshooled my whole life, and it's had it's good and bad points, but I've graduated with only one friend out of it. I go to a good church but it seems I can't get completely plugged in there, I don't call a single person there a best friend. Guys are out of the question/picture, every single one is either an ex relationship or a trusted friend that tried to get in my pants or ditch me when I got a bf. Aside from my bf, that's it, he is all I have. I really want and miss having female friends and girls night and all that. I am miserably lonely... I needed youth pastors to be parents when mine weren't and they let me down, all I've wanted is for a few true friends to go places with and share stuff with but no one is right. They are either fake or too into bad things like drugs and sex which I don't have in common with them, or they're too into good stuff like perfect Christian churchgoers who cant understand my bad past or tolerate something like a random accidental cuss word. I don't belong in any group anywhere... No one person is like me enough to understand me and be a real friend. I've tried so hard, but maybe I don't know how. Being homeschooled never did a good thing for me.