I feel you on this. I've gone through some difficult relationship problems in the past and they just don't feel good and it often feels like you'll never feel better again.

The best I can suggest is to just take things one moment, one breath, one step at a time.

Maybe just work on getting through the rest of tonight for right now. Watch a TV show, try to eat, etc..

Hang in there, and know that there are lots of people here who understand

Albert, this is a tough time and it sounds like you feel rejected because she went to stay with a friend. It sounds like you believe this is the worst case scenario? I am sorry and I hear your distress. Don't know if you guys are breaking up or if she is like simply visiting that friend. It might be a good gift to yourself to work on making friends for yourself, being less isolated from other humans than her. Find some activities you enjoy instead of just having her. I've been recommending book clubs to people, my public library does online book clubs as well as in person ones. A friend of mine plays cards with others at the library and another friend does Magic The Gathering games at a card shop. It is hard to get out of our comfort zone of only relying on one person but I think it can be very valuable to have interests and activities of our own. Know that we all care about you on here and please let us know how you are doing.

It is tough feeling alone, perhaps you can use this time to get to know yourself better, find a new hobby or reengage with a healthy old hobby, just some suggestions, i do hope you find a resolve for yourself, this too shall pas. Look forward to the day that it does and be glad you moved forward