I have been through that a few times. I can tell you from experiance that no one can and most people wont even try to help you as their to damn selfish to care about someone else. I went through all that too.

I will tell you to lean on us here and maybe look at some of the other support groups here for help. There are many and tons of people that have probably been through most if not all of what you are going through and would love to talk with you about it.

I am usually online during the week if you want to talk with me. Life isnt fair and honestly the ones we can truly count on is ourselves. People come and go through our lives.

I wish you luck and pray you find happiness again!

I've never lost my will to live. I care about others, but no one is everything to me, and if they can live without me, I'll feel bad, for a while, but not destroyed. I only get the one life, it's mine and I want every minute of it.

The worst thing I've gone through was realizing that someone that I adored, spent a good deal of time smearing me to other people.
I'm very straightforward - couldn't pull off detesting someone, yet calling them and talking to them for an hour nearly every night. What a total waste of time and energy. I don't see the point in living like that.

It was quite a jolt, and I went through a few weeks of being miserable. But, I wouldn't sit by and watch someone else suffer. I would try to find something to cheer them up or distract them. up. I do the same for myself. Also, wanting to enjoy my time motivates me.

People who have hobbies that they love tend to be content. Just moving forward in some way - even very small goals or accomplishments make the day better.

Sending good thoughts.

You are not alone with your thoughts and feelings, not by any means. Many of us have been exactly where you are, and some of us still are. Things will get better but it takes work, work to believe we are worthy of happiness and good things. I'm glad you found this group because everyone here can either relate, or can show their concern and support for you. A very big welcome!! Hugs GB

Ammaray - I have felt everything you just said before. Some days I still feel a lot of it. I'm turning 38 next month, I'm single, no kids, never married, and I can feel myself start to get cynical and bitter, too. So I know how you feel.

I wish I could give you better advice and encouragement. But sometimes (at least in my opinion), it just helps to know that you're not alone. So here I am, telling you that you're not alone in these feelings. I definitely get them too. What also helps me is telling myself that I only have to get through today. Do that every morning, because for me, those were the hardest times -- just to get up in the morning.

I know it can be difficult to "think positive thoughts" when you're feeling this way. If you ever just need to vent, or talk about anything, let me know. Send me a message. I'm going through some stuff right now too. Maybe we can help each other.

welcome and hugs

Hugs from me too...Yes, I always have those feelings and like the others here you just have to take day by day. Get thru today and get thru tomorrow. I am sorry you are having a hard time. I am slowly trying to love myself again as I am so lost. Have never been sure what my purpose is. I have no kids, no husband, I do have a loving family and they are very supportive. They are the only ones that get me thru the hardest of days.
We are all here for each other and I am sending positive vibes to you.

Hello and welcome! Sorry to hear how you're feeling-perhaps it is that your life /routine has gotten to you..perhaps looking into new things to do and get involved with...even a little change can make a big difference

Try treating yourself to you favorite things, watch things that would make you feel good or laugh.Try seeing a different perspective of the things that would make you bitter, try thinking of yourself in someone else's shoes, maybe it can help. Hope you can find your way

Yes, it does go away, you just have to learn how to channel your negativity into things that are positive. As I mentioned in another post, have you tried volunteering at your local animal shelter or any organization that you feel you would enjoy? Get your mind off of you, and onto other things? Sometimes what you imagine is not worse than what's actually there. You only have so much emotional energy each day. So don't fight battles that don't matter. You have found a wonderful group here on DS and those here want to help pull you up, show how they care, and support you anyway they can. I'm so glad you are here with us. Hugs GB

Thank you all for your beautiful and encouraging comments, it sometimes feels like I will never get through this, but I am very glad I found this site with the many support groups. I hope I can pull through this soon

I've been where you are and I'm currently going thorough something now. I don't know where to start but there is one example I can give you. Yesterday, my youngest brother and myself were walking down the bike path, near our home; there in the house sat my mom who was very mad. It just felt the world was snapped from under my feet. I thought about all that made me happy and the times I when things were happier here at home; how the three of us used to enjoy our lives and not let others (especially family) interrupt it. But everything seemed opposite. My youngest brother was very upset, he even tossed his sunglasses on the ground, he was so mad and he was hurt because he received news that his father, who lives in California, has cancer and he is on a oxygen machine. He is not doing so well. The last time my brother seen his father was in the early 1990s, when we used to live in California. When we lived in Ohio in 1988, my brother's father left him because his mother (my brother's grandmother) promised to buy his father a new version of the Nova car. She told him that if he stayed in Ohio, he would not get the car but if he returned back to California, he would get the car and probably money.

My heart was broken in many pieces. Seeing those two upset and expressing their anger.

Like you, I had a close friend who is no longer talking to me, we were like sisters and we attended a small school, where we were the 6 graders there. My mom is emotionally upset, my brother is planning to move away, which would leave me alone. My oldest brother is being a butt, he wonders what would happen to me and my youngest brother if something happens to my mom. I'm trying to force myself to do things so I can keep my mind busy. Like someone on here mentioned, it's a lonely world because no one seem to care how you feel because they are too busy doing their thing. yesterday, when I was walking down the street, I cried real hard and screamed "why?".

Now I'm scared of life because I've lost so much. I've lost my friend, pets died, family issues, and etc. I am motivated but scared shitless.

Hey wep,

Yeah it is rough. Sometimes I wonder what is happening, so many people are in pain. It is as if every person lives in a parallel universe, we walk side by side but exist in a separate matrix. It feels surreal. I hope nothing happens to your mom and your brother stays so you won't be alone.

You WILL pull through this, how can you not with all these wonderful people? Keep posting and let us know how you are doing!!! Hugs GB

I have to pay alot if I want some pleasure. But better then nothing.

You have taken the words right out of my mouth. If your job is meaningless and boring, can you make a change. I am in the same spot. I had to make a change. I approached my HR dept and did not care if I lost my job because of it. I had to make a change. I am now in the process and already feel good. My workplace knows my work ethic and that is what matters. It is amazing how many of us feel the same way. It is so tough to get through but please do not give up. Take each day as it comes. It is so easy to wallow in the negative. It takes work to focus on the positive. Leave the past behind you. Get rid of the negative people and energy... if that leaves you with only 1 friend, that is ok. Look at meetup groups. They can help. Take 1 day at a time. We all care here. Hugs