Loneliness Support Group
Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any...
I am a 67 year old female. I live alone with my dog Scout. My grown children (two daughters) have divorced themselves from me because I witnessed their father in a sexually abusive situation with my 6 year old granddaughter. I didn't tell anyone for about 6 months, and then in therapy I mentioned the incident to my therapist who immediately reported it to CPS. When my exhusband was confronted by two police officers who came to his home with the accusation of sexual abuse, he stridently denied it and told my girls that I was a liar and obviously experiencing a manic episode. My daughters believed him and I haven't seen them for a year and a half. I recently found out that my eldest daughter, who is the mother of my granddaughter, is going to have another child, a boy. She was due September 10th. I keep checking the paper to see if the birth was reported. I have already sent two gifts, and I plan on sending a congratulatory card. All was going well with us before the abuse incident. I had a terrific relationship with my granddaughter. Since my daughters cut me out of their lives I have gradually become more unsure of myself and have thought of suicide many times. However, I decided that I must live, if only to see the day when my girls come back to me. I know I wasn't the best mother and have scarred my girls with numerous bouts of mania. I managed to graduate from college and haven't had an episode of mania in 10 years. I have been a substitute teacher for five years now and although I am poor, I manage. I am racked with guilt about the past, the damage to both my children and my immediate family, and excessive doubt about my ability to relate to others. I have no friends, they left me long ago, and the only people I talk to now are my 90 year old mother and my younger sister. They both have no patience with my insecurities and I am left to talk with a therapist once a month. I struggle on but happiness is not something I have experienced in a while. What to do?
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You have come to a good place. A lot of people with loneliness in common. Lots of sad stories shared here, and a lot of support between us.
So sad to hear that your daughters aren't a part of your life now. But give them time.
As for you, don't keep reliving the past. Live for today and think about tomorrow. We all have things in our past haunting us, and they are hard to forget. But we can't let them keep draining us. You wrote that you are going to a therapist. That is good, to talk everything out. But you can talk it out here too, to many sympathetic ears!!!
I have issues of my own that I am working through, and it helps for me to log in here often, and offer what words I can to someone. It helps to divert my attention away from my own problems!!!
I will send you a friend request. If you accept it, please feel free to message me. I am in here several times a day.
Best wishes to you, and have a good evening!!!
Good God, I was only 4 years old. Please, never ever feel guilty about your decision. I can imagine how lonely it must feel, but take comfort in the fact that you were and still are a terrific grandmother who loves her family unconditionally.