Loneliness Support Group
Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any...
Hello,
As the title suggests, I have a serious, long term, multi-faceted problem with lack of social interaction. Multiple serious betrayals of my trust as a child have since made it near impossible for me to form friends or even interact casually with other people beyond required interaction for work or school. Logically, I see my problem as thus: all people are innately capable of betrayal of trust, and given the right circumstance, it is inevitable. Therefore, I have lacked the ability and desire to make friends for many years. I'm extremely lonely and my isolation only leads to more time for me to process and reaffirm my own logic. It's at the point where I have nothing to look forward to in my life and not a single person I can reach out to for any kind of support. I wish I could take my own life, but I lack the ability to overcome my own fear of death, even though I possess the means to do so. I feel like a prisoner on death row, in solitary confinement for years on end with nothing but their own thoughts to keep them company- no friends, no family, little to no human contact. I do not know what it's like to be happy, and in the end, I just really want a friend to talk to.
No idea what people will make of this, but any comment is appreciated more than you could imagine.
I can't possibly imagine the traumas that you have been through. Please don't take your own life. There are good people out there who want to help and enjoy helping.
Have you sought out any counseling? If you are able to, I would certainly recommend that. I can understand your fear of even trying to establish relationships with others but you are in the right place. There are wonderful people on this site that have felt the same way.
I would be honored to be your friend. Please PM me for any reason.
You are also innately capable of betraying others, aren't you? But is it really inevitable..people can resist their impulses to commit crimes for a lifetime. Trust must be earned and you can never fully trust any human, not even yourself. Still, it is possible to have a good friend in whom you can confide in and vice versa. Don't throw the baby out with the bathwater. Obviously, for you it is that much harder given your early experiences.
how about a pet? unconditional love
I'm so sorry for your pain and past tragedies (they most certainly impact us).
Ultimately what you will be left with is a feeling of separation and judgement because you are a deep thinker, and that is different.
Sometimes I think a change of scene or moving to a town would help. But would the ridicule be any less or would people in a city just care less?
Anyway, even if it is just out of spite, get out of bed every morning and dont eat that revolver for breakfast. Keep being who you want to be and not what the a holes want you to be.
In the end it is on the betrayer's soul not yours. You are not the guilty one so you should not be the one consumed by darkness. Dealing with pain from a betrayal should not be on your soul. Let it go.