yeah it makes things worse at this time of year. ive spent many yrs of holidays alone, but ive never gotten use to it. being alone sometimes, yeah thats fine, as a permanent condition, with little to zero life, and well thats just existing. this has seemed like a long month, ill be glad when all the phony holiday good will and cheer is over with. least i dont have a tv and have to deal with the sickening christmas commercials.

karl, for me holidays are when i'm at my worst. it is terrible when you see all the lights and colors around you and yet you are in such a dark lonely place. during such times i say to myself ''this is just another ordinary day like any other. i just have to hold on and let it pass''. holidays hold very little meaning for me.

god bless all of us lonely souls

Thanks for the comments ,this is my second year alone it is a bit distressing if i think about it so im just saying same as azuresky its just another day to trivialise it,im trying to make efforts to make sure next year is different

This is the loneliest and most painful Christmas season of my life.

this one is different because officially i have no family, as my mom died in june. even though she treated me like she hated me, its still different this year. just something else to feel sad about, how things ended.

This is the worst time of the year. I hate it. I just want to sleep from November until January 2.

So sorry you guys are suffering so much,wish we could all get together to help take away our pain

Agree with all the comments. It becomes a test of endurance for those of us who are alone. We say to ourselves, "it wasn't meant to be like this" but that doesn't take away the pain at all.
The idea of going to sleep for several days is very appealing.

Though I am not alone, and grateful for that, this season still depresses me in all its superficiality, the obligatory cards, etc that I receive from many "friends" who don't know me anymore nor really care. I think next year I am going to refrain from sending cards except to those closest to me. I think it makes me realize how much life has changed and people change and that is hard on me. I try to remain thankful for what I do have, and make the necessary changes as I go...

I actually used to enjoy my own company at Christmas, pub, Lunch with parents then back home for crap TV & beer!
Since i had a Daughter though, it's all been about her, not had an Xmas in the last 5 years without her with me all day, & not had one in the last eight years without my little girl's Mummy with me.
It's gonna be a strange one for sure, but i know there are a lot of people a lot worse off than me.
My heart & my thoughts go out to everyone spending Christmas alone, or apart from loved ones.
People say it's 'just a day', but it never feels like 'just a day'.

mrtame1 I agree. If only it were "just a day". There is so much hype and expectations that we will all be playing "happy families" when for many of us this is far from the reality. Sigh...

a warm and tight hug for everybody here who feels lonely and alone as the holidays approach. i feel the same and i am with you.
--sri