I'm glad you got some support at the library and met some people too there...So sorry about your cat though....youll get thru this....

I know you're feeling bad about your kitty. And rightfully so. But, you're making a positive experience sounds negative.

You had people to talk to today and even got a hug! It could be the start of a regular meetup and conversation. You could even start a book club or something.

Go ahead and sexually harrass...I mean hug...the ladies! They might NOT even prosecute (they're lonely too)!

My cats pick up my feelings. If I am depressed they pick it up and try to help that's the way they are. When I have a PTSD flashback, they automatically step in and tap my hands and meow to help me out of it.

Maybe if you didn't let the one cat's possible death consume you, it might make you feel a bit better and let your cats feel a bit better too.

And there are great books at the library. If you want to get a real kick, try the one:

The Cat Who Saw Stars by Lilian Jackson Braun

You'll get a real kick out of the ending and itI was just a perfect ending considering the book involving the cats. It was a very imaginative ending.

I tend to ready books that put me in a happy frame of mind.

Lol Penn @ sexual harassment comment. Maybe she likes u man. That is good.

Penn, I am jealous now, I haven't had a librarian hug me.

eyesalve, she just gave me another hug in the street.

me back at library, though not cause of that; have an hour to type at library, vs....too quiet apartment.

my kitty kat even now resting outside library window, with my window looking out on both.

Yeah/library is one of the socializing centers for me. Another is. sit-down deli of the health-food co-op.

Now on being standoffishness... a) there ARE some people whom I don't greatly to encourage 2 pay me much attention. So if one wants to hug me, I can politely put up with it. . b) But too there are nice ppl whom I like, and I try to be open to them. I may sometimes have to work at it.

They may not be so reflective, yes - maybe I'm unable maybe to imagine actually being super good friends with them. But in "Games People Play," Berne says ppl give ea other strokes and w/o strokes ppl will dry up and die. (Harlow's monkey's) Anyway

Do as I say not as I do. . lol

no library today---cause of snow falling.

I bought a second hand tower a month/whenever ago, but now I want to sit at library computer every day.

All this talk makes me want to go to the library. I haven't seen to many male librarians but like tehdreamer says if just to meet people or form a book club.

To Penntucky's #10 post: Hi :) A teacher of mine long ago used to go to a carrell of his in the attic of the Student Union bld. I've always since thought about that.

Not his office, not home, no -- but that place up there was his favourite place when he was doing his thing. It provided his chosen level of outside stimulus. (Background stimulus,.. nearness to a place to take a break.) One floor down was a coffee lounge.

Over at the uni library he could have gotten a carrell. but it would have been 1/2 block from coffee(tea) and a few ppl sitting about.

It's about degree or distance of shut-awayness. Proper amt.
anyway

C.