Hi,
I was going to go to a support group meeting tonight, but then I got totally terrified. The lady who leads it on Sunday, is in my opinion, kinda mean. One time, she told me that people would continue to reject me because I was so easily stressed out. I was not terribly offended by that because it was a good piece of information that helped me to improve myself and my social life.

But, I still really hold back from going to her group. I and my situation have improved a whole lot, but about a year later I walked in there, much happier, with a job, more friends, etc, and she started yelling at me in front of everyone, saying that I was not doing better, etc, just look at me. I have to say I was totally mortified. I really needed to get out of the house today but as I was thinking about getting myself together to go over there, fear and panic took over. I kinda get the impression that they are trying to force confessions of sexual abuse over there, which in my case is not really warranted. One of the ladies keeps trying to talk about how she is going to prosecute daddy, etc. It seemed like they were trying to get me to cry and all of this, and when I finally did, the one lady walked up to me and said, "I knew it was something." When I don't respond like this, she sometimes shuns me. It doesn't seem quite right. There are other meetings during the week. Maybe I will go to those, instead and just tough it out today. With the exeption of going out Thurs and Fri, I have been totally alone in the house with not a single phone call all weekend. It's kinda depressing and scary. When everything stops, the silence is a lot.