we are in a time where millions of americans and others around the world are dealing with lonely on a major scale because of Covid....I am not blaming your feelings on Covid my statement is your not alone.....I have a new girlfriend who has entered the picture but it is hard with that too.....she is morbidly obese and it seems to not effect her in how she relates to men.....which is difficult because I am pretty reserved sexually.....it has been a struggle here and there but seems with a bit of efforts we get thru....but loneliness is not something that must continue....have you heard of meetup.com? it is for people to connect with others and even married people choose to use meetup to entertain their lives....there are things like cards groups....quilting groups.....hiking biking swimming whatever and eating drinking groups too.....you could join that and choose the type of basic groups you are interested in.....they vary widely.....anyway try to get outside the depressed feelings of loneliness.....that sucks life out of you when on that pity pot of I am so lonely....it can cause real bad things to go into deep depressions over loneliness....because it is a feeling and so is depression....they feed each other too...

I know how you feel to a point. I'm not married or have children but I do have a boyfriend who doesn't listen and I know he doesn't care about how I feel. I am an extremely anxious person and really don't have many friends because of it. Plus I really don't get too close to them since it makes me very uncomfortable. It's hard dealing with my emotions, let alone open to other people. I never really learned all that stuff growing up. So yeah, I know what lonleliness feels like and it's no fun.

So sorry you are going through this. I have felt that way... I describe it as being in a crowded room but yet feeling so lonely. It is difficult for someone who has never felt that way before to understand it when you say it that way. I found that when my mind played tricks on me (I call it the devil) in doubting myself and ruminating about the past and future I isolate myself and become more lonely. I have found help through positive psychology podcasts, free college courses on coursera, among other things. Everyone is different, I would suggest reaching out to some good uplilfting podcasts or reading and make it part of your day while you cook, clean, or exercise. Good Luck, I hope you find your way out of your slump.

I had a best friend, but she had kids young, and we grew apart. I moved away too. I haven’t had a close friend in years, and it sucks. I have no family in my “newer” state, and nobody really wants to move here. It’s been really hard finding friends, so I understand.