I know how you feel. Nobody gets it. You disclose your feelings to someone and suddenly things feel awkward. It seems no one knows what to say. Loneliness is a killer. I feel suicidal many times but keep it to myself so as not to burden anyone - whatever that means. When I tell my psychiatrist I feel suicidal she immediately wants to mix up my med regime. Which I'm usually game for but nothing seems to be helping. Sad to say but I think this is my new normal. Feeling lonely - I hate it too.

Debbalina is right. People don't know what to say. People that are happy in their lives don't have a clue what loneliness or depression feels like. I don't even try to talk anymore. I don't trust anyone around me to not gossip about what I tell them. This forum is a great place to spill our hearts out. No worries about the gossip!!

I do not really share much about loneliness in public because those people out there are not true friends but acquaintances only....they do not have deep commitment to me and my problems but only how they can be made happy having me around them when they wish....sucks

Yea that's why I am lonely I don't trust anyone.

I have this smae problem I dot. Want to be lonely but when you do find someone to open up to it always seems to come back and blow up in your face. I have friends but they don't quite seem to understand what it feels like. It's nice to have a place like this to discuss it.

yes it is Zigz. Most of my gf tried to mess around with my bf, never got over that, and I wondered, why would they do that to me? What the hell, I mean how low can you go? So, women for me, are not the most trustworthy, therefore I stay alone.

They just don't know how to handle it, and it's a burden to them. We all need love, but for an emotionally healthy person to pour their love into a lonely, depressed person is like looking down into a neverending well, and none of us like looking down into that abyss...but sometimes we have to.

That's true Koolman, I suppose if I was on top of the world right now, and someone else was bummed, would I really want them to bring me down, or pull me down, No. Honestly, I wouldn't and that sounds bad, but it's true. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Mending again - i had a girlfriend that flirted with one of my boyfriends...and he was the one that told me about it. I was like....wtf? That was one of many red flags I should have seen - she ended up being a very shitty friend but not after deceiving me into believing she was a good one. Killed my trust in people.

Wow that just really does something, people have no idea who they are hurting, but I believe they are lacking in something themselves to be able to do that to someone else. Im sorry you had to go through that and I know that had to be painful, but you know what, we can't let people like this destroy our trust, because atleast your bf was on your side about this because he told you, he couldn've been any other kind of man, and went for it you know what I mean, so although she was shitty, he was not, and really he showed you you could trust him. Atleast that's how I would have felt.

And yes people can destroy us, but we can also choose to let those people go, it'll only hurt for a little, while but we don't have to keep letting it hurt us.

Have felt the same way in the past. Try giving yourself more reasonable expectations. I could use a significant other and more friends but that is not like a pill you can take and things change. Find a way to nurture you life to meet objectives.

djchurn wise words

I know what it's like and it sucks, there's no doubt about it. The thing is, you have to stay strong, because you have a wonderful future to live and there will be so many broken hearts if you kill yourself. There's this girl I know who you can message anytime she loves hearing from people. Her Instagram is @missionbetterworld and you can DM her whenever you'd like. I'm new to here, but if there is a way to talk to each other, I will be your friend too. I need one too.

aaww thanks survivor4444 would love to be friends.