If you are alive, you have a future and it's what you choose to make it. You deserve to be loved but I think it has to start with loving yourself. You are the right person. If you do love yourself I apologize for assuming otherwise. Living with the longing for companionship sucks but if we can set it aside, every day can hold an adventure. Go to the park for a walk, to a movie, climb a tree, go to a rock concert, or something of the sort, do something for you. Feelings fluctuate and if we can choose to move past the current ones often times they go away and allow for better ones to be had... at least that's what a psychologist I follow on Facebook says.

I get it, but you have to realize that you may be experiencing a version of martyr syndrome. Someone in my family is a martyr type of personality and once people catch on it turns them off and turns them away.

It may be worthwhile for you to research that syndrome. Martyrs have a tendency to need to be self-sacrificing for another person, or others in general, in order to be motivated and to have a feeling of fulfilment. This stems from a lack of self love and a resistance to do anything about the problem, as they feel that everyone else is the problem, not themselves. I'm not saying this is you, I'm saying it's worth looking into, because if by any chance this is where your need to have another person in your life in order to be your best, could originate.

WikiHow has a simple write-up about it, including: 'A person with martyr syndrome puts everyone else’s needs above his or her own so that he or she can suffer for the sake of others and thus give his or her life meaning. Know that people with martyr syndrome suffer mostly by choice. When someone has martyr syndrome, they often choose to continue suffering, rather than fixing the problem, because they think that their suffering provides them with the completeness and fulfillment required to lead a meaningful and whole life. More than anything, a person with martyr syndrome longs for recognition and approval from those around him or her.'

The 'someone' in my life is my sister and she has spent most of her adult life feeling sorry for herself for not having the love she wants and she has done anything and everything for her youngest daughter, who is now 43 and can't make a life for herself because her mom successfully made her so terribly dependent, out of her own need to do for someone else instead of for herself.

Agree with tt: Every day, even alone, can be an adventure. Yeah, sharing the adventure with another warm honey is more fun. But loving another can be burdensome too. Life is all a trade-off. Want something, gotta give up something else, to get it.