I live my life utterly alone. Besides mental health professionals, I have no one. I spend my days alone, in my cabin, with my cats.
I let go of everyone after a traumatic event. Ive been too scared to reconnect again with new people.
To most people, they cant concieve of a life where they dont speak to others daily. At work/school.... life happenings... I have a phone that never rings....
All I want is someone who wants to talk to me... who shows that they look forward to it, that contacts me regularly... who cares.
I am an island.
change has always been hard for me. But I think soon there will be too much change going on. My best friend is moving away, I’m struggling to find a good job and if I don’t i will lose my apartment . It’s weird it feels like everyone around me life’s getting better. But mine seems to just stay stagnate
I dont feel really any point in living anymore. This feeling of drowning in my pain won’t let up no matter what I try. Family friends and work just feel like temporary distractions from it. I don’t see a point in trying to power through depression anymore when everything I try leaves me feeling the same or slightly worse. I feel ready to end it all and wanting to die. I’m sick of it all.