Hey im really lonely, i mean i have some friends which zre just 'friends' but the way im lonely is that no one gets me, i tried to tell them and make them a bit mature but they are so narrow minded im the only different person in the squad, i stay quiet most of the time, feels really lonely even if im with my friends, they just dont get me, i feel like i try to fit in, recently i found a girl which is really nice and we share so much same stuff, and i told her that im lonely and feel like it, dont have mature friends, nobody to open with, and she understood me well, she is also a mature one like me and said if i wanna share something i could talk to her, but the problem is i feel like im annoying her if i bring up this topic, and feel needy infront of her, another problem is we talk on text, she is in my class same school, but she already have really good friend who she hangs out with, but in reality she sort of acts like she doesnt know and doesnt say a word even when she passes me, until i make the  move in going up to her talking bout something, plus she spends all the time with her friends, i feel like she is mature but doesnt wanna spend time with me, because im annoying, i think im too complex for someone to understand, i wish i wasnt born in this world, she is friendly on text but in reality she is totally different, like a strong headed person idk why, i want to stay with her and hang out with her, because she is so damn nice, but i think she doesnt like it. i feel like im never gonna have any friends who understands me.

idk what to do, i get suicidal thoughts i cry for hours lying over my bed i have family problem because i dont talk much and dont participate in houswork im so stressed bout this, and just tired of being like this....i frickin want someone to tell my everything....