Loneliness Support Group
Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any...
Last night I had a very disturbing dream that some kids killed my uncle and buried his body in my bed drawer and when I woke up I told my uncle that I missed him and he told me to have a good day and then I told him that I had a weird dream about him and glad it wasn't real and he told me sorry about it and to have a fabulous day and to be safe. All that is good and well but it just brings me to a feeling that I usually have and that is that my uncles are too busy to talk to me. They're always working and the only time they reach out is if someone alerts them about me or I'm broke. I don't know why this bothers me but I kinda wish I had better relationships with people? It's not even like I want to rekindle our relationship cause that seems messy all in its self but it makes me wish for things I've never had.
Like I felt alot of neglect from my family and always had to choose a side with some of them and as a child many things were "my fault" but no one cared to ask me what started it and I don't want to go down that rabbit hole cause it's a lot. Frankly I was constantly tired and having an atittude to sum it up. But today I know more about myself than I did years ago and know how to fix them but I fear that I'm wasting my time with family cause they already have an idea of who I am because of my past troubles and some only want to talk to me via group messages. Guess I wish that the fams were normal and that it takes me to keep a relationship only to be ghosted by them.
Do y'all ever feel that way? Like there was so much neglect and disinterest in you as a person but fams keep a smile on and pretend like it's okay when you're in person and then say their busy when you're away? Like I get people are busy but what kind of life are you living if all you do is work to the point of having no relationships? Or maybe it's all avoidance?? Just though I'd get it off my chest.
Listen to your dreams, write them down, and know that it is you mind working things out.
Learn how to love yourself, learn how to care for yourself. Focus on your own well being. Start a journal daily, write down what you did, how you feel.
When you know your family members are doing something show up, be present and help out. Help them without expectations.
STOP thinking for them too. unless you ask them what they think about you or your situation. Then you are not in their thoughts about your success or troubles.
I did not know your story until today , never heard about you, thought about you or knew you existed. Therefore I can not judge you in your past because I dont know it. If you want help about a wrong you did in your past then seek out people you trust that are healthy, want to see you succeed, and are spiritually strong in their walk.
In order to have friends you have to be one. you have to want to see others succeed, see others doing good, encourage them to be the best version of themselves that they can be. If you can not offer help or support, then just listen and agree and thank then for sharing.
If your family is human... then they have their own demons that they are struggling with, maybe they see you making the same mistakes that they did and are angry with themselves, and dont know how to deal with it so they strike out. Its because they like you have judged yourself through the lie you have told yourself to what they believe.
Everybody has demons, fears, self doubt, and anxiety on some level.
Focus on being the best version of yourself that you can be,
Your family loves you, even if they dont know how to express it. Even the ones that are abusive - love you, they just dont know how to deal with their own demons.
You are loved and need to love yourself as hard as it may be.
I pray you are safe and healthy.