Suzi: I too have lost 3 pets that I had for almost 20-25 years. It is devastating. They are wonderful companions and there when we are sad and lonely...butt their heads on our face when we cry...just seem to know how we feel. I have 3 cats right now.

If you can, get another cat. There are so many that need rescuing. It will help you and save a poor cat's life.

We all are scared of what our future might be. It's normal to feel that way. To give yourself security "Never put all your eggs in one basket. If you have two baskets and drop one, you still have a basket of eggs" meaning always be prepared for anything and always expect the unexpected.
(((angel hugs)))

I can definitely relate to what you wrote about your cat, as well as being alone and afraid.

my cat is 20 years old, as I've been a broken record about on this site.

every now and then it sweeps over me how alone I am, which is sometimes scary---though I was 'alone' while living with my lowlife parents, and was too stupid to know it.

when I was a kid, it was easier to get a new pet after one died; if you can afford a new pet, it might be best to get another one...I adopted a cat, to keep my old cat company, back in 2006, with me asking the no-kill shelter just for the one there the longest...one whole year in a cage!

the ending of the neo-realist movie, "la strada", for Anthony Quinn to realize how alone he is; might want to check out those few seconds.

"umberto d" is an enormously depressing movie about an old man and his dog; sometimes I have the courage/craziness to watch such dvds.

oh, god, Blondie61, its almost scary how I just saw your post, right after I finished typing mine, and can too much relate to what you wrote.

I just lost my dog but I knew he wasn't good last year and got a dog then,,,,so now I am better than I might have been with just one dog as I have two

a late...I'm glad to hear you are feeling better, billwfriend, re your pet.