Im sorry your struggling with this! its true, we do need a friend atleast one... Yet its so hard to rely on people. I wouldnt give up on it hun! From my experience, when I was at my lowest I had no one to turn too, it was just so ironic that when others need "help" you just happen to be there... It sucks. sigh unfortunately... I havent figure out why that happens, it does but I have learned to occupy myself, do things for me, I have become selfish over the years, and Im okay with that I mean other people are... "Happiness is the best revenge". I do wish you happiness, if your getting bad vibes from them take break... see whether or not the relationships are worth fighting for. Ive read a quote that goes like "The truth is everyone is going to hurt you... you just have to find the ones worth hurting for"... too cheesy? I atleast hope it helps.. something to think about :) and know your not alone here :) warm hugs

Rejection sucks. I know the feeling. As I've gotten older I've found friends, actual see them semi regularly friends, are hard to come by. Even some of my old friends I often think "why am I even friends w you and v/v?" Only advice I've got is to not shut yourself off from the opportunity of a new friendship. I've recently met some new friends thru work after many years of feeling very rejected by everyone else. They are wonderful. But it took me a while to be open to thinking they actually wanted to be my friend bc I had been so guarded.

On the other hand, while having no one is extremely difficult, you can make it thru those times. You'd be sursprised how strong a person can be when forced to rely on him or herself.

Hang in there.

Dependable, true friends are few and far between. I'm sure it wasn't because you had to work one time that this happened. Sounds like she's someone that moved on to other people and excluded you. I can really relate to your post. About 3 years ago I felt really disillusioned by the way I was treated by some so called friends. It seemed everyone was just too busy to return my text or call and I lost count of the number of times they cancelled on me at short notice. I got very hurt and offended particularly to see them on social media enjoying time with other friends- not letting them down like they did to me! I felt less important. Like you - I questioned why. Like you - I thought I'm loyal but I don't get that loyalty back. Then I decided not to be hurt by their bad behaviour. They were no longer special to me. I saw them as disorganised, lacking in thought and not able to be there for me. I didn't ever confront them. I didn't make knee jerk decisions to cut them off but I learnt that these were not friends I could count on. These days I have them in perspective and I still expect them to let me down and they often do. You see some people are just not very good friends to you. They don't give back what you invested in them. Therefore they don't expect much. Don't give them much....but make room for someone that can be that true friend you need. I haven't found that close friend yet but I'm open to finding them. In the meantime I have a few friends I see occasionally and don't get my hopes up where they're concerned.
As far as the men you've dated go., dont accept that behaviour for a second. Honour and value yourself. You deserve better.
Take care

Thank you all for your support. I'm just going to keep on keeping on. Seems like I function best alone anyway. It is hard meeting genuine, honest, loyal people anymore.

well..I have come to the idea that friends are good but we can live without them. Be open to new people but remember that what we truly need is social interaction, and we can have it with our family maybe. If friends come to our lives good, if don't, it is ok, we can go on without them. I have really worked on these ideas trough the whole year and it makes me feel a lot better.